Stuff from NTU Career & Attachment Office

Yeah! Got this laptop cover/bag from Career & Attachment Office. Did an online survey for them a few months back. Now they sent me this. NTU too rich....

Result's out...

YA HOOO~~~~ I PASSED MY BLOODY FYP!!! MINIMUM EFFORT MAXIMUM GAIN!

Alright... it was a scary bet afterall, i shouldn't have really pushed my luck every sem.. now that the final sem really scares me badly... luckily nothing goes wrong this time..

Name	WANG SICONG		Matric	043198H06
Programme	COMPUTER ENGINEERING		Year	4

Exam Yr	Semester	Course	Exam Grade
2007	2	CPE416	B-
2007	2	CPE428	A-
2007	2	CPE479	B
2007	2	HMJ3	B-
2007	2	HW310	B

The above exam status is FINAL only when all your results have been released! REMARK: YOU HAVE COMPLETED THE DEGREE OF BACHELOR OF ENGINEERING (COMPUTER ENGINEERING) WITH SECOND CLASS HONOURS (LOWER DIVISION)

CPE416 is distributed system.. happy enough that got a B- for it.. the bloody paper is kan phua xiong and everyone was cursing txy... but then again.. guess that the cummulative curve saved me ass...

CPE428 is simulation and modeling.. ah... that was quite a slack mod... A- is very good enough for me le... HAPPY x2!

CPE479 is FYP.. WOOT!! this is the most shocking liao.. it's a B!!!! IT'S A B!!!!! wahahahahahahahahahahaa!!!

HMJ3 is jap level 3.. chui.. it's B-!!! look like my jap is really that chui.. gg...

HW310 is prof comm.. ah.. writing mod with no exam.. sure pass one...


Yeap! On average i think my academic result is an average B... plus FYP B.. that gives me a 2nd lower.. good enough.. i never ask for more than a pass with merit. =) congrats me!!!!

the mattress theory for university studies...

i've come up with the mattress theory recently while talking to friends.. i think this theory can expand into a more complete one and, perhaps, some day, i might be able to publish it...


The Mattress Definition
As everyone knows, mattress is something that you can rest on, is something you place on top of the floor (or bed base). It is the cushion level that allows you to sleep through the night comfortably. So, in the context of university study, this mattress refers to someone you "lie" on top of so you can get pass the exams or to get A's.

Law of Maximum Usage of Mattress
In real life, mattress is something pretty expensive, especially if it is a good one. Of course, there are ways to maxmize the lifespan of a mattress. Same to our "mattress" in university, the lifespan of it can be maximized too. To do so, follow the steps below.

1. Find a good mattress. A good mattress should be someone, preferably, below average grades. However, you may try to obtain average students too. But the way of maintaining would be more tacky. Note that, you may get multiple mattresses too. The more the better.
2. Help out the mattresses with their normal schoolwork. However, just do the minimal effort.
   
3. For projects, just help out with some details will do. Best is if you can get into same group as them. Do most of the stuff, so you know the stuff and they don't. So during presentation, you are likely to score higher than them.
4. For presentation, arrange the format such that you get the most important part, and also a big bulk, so that you will stand out more than the others.
5. Here is the most important step. Study with them. Your main aim here is to make sure they pass their exams! This may sound weird. Why must let them pass if you want them to become mattresses? Think properly. Mattress doesn't refer to failures only. Those people who C and D are also mattresses for you to get a good B grade. =)
6. However, do not feed in too much information. When you feel you have "stuffed them with enough cotton", you may use this suggested answer to reply their questions, "I don't know! I don't know! I don't know!"

Something special to take note here. During the last semester, you may choose to forsake them totally. This is because there is no need for them anymore. You are graduating soon. Taking care of them will mean extra effort. This law of maximum usage utilizes minimum effort maximum gain.

If you are thinking why not just dump those mattresses and get a new one again the next semester, you gotta be kidding. What you are doing is actually a sifting process. You are filtering out the rotten apples leaving the good ones. That is kind of dangerous as you approach the last year, you might be left out only people of your same caliber. That makes you on your own already. This should be avoided at all cost. Therefore, bring your mattress along to the next semester. This is what you should do. Reuse them.



alright.. maybe next time i can do a mathematical proof to compare the effort and gain between reusing the mattress and acquiring new mattress. okay.. i'm joking here.. this whole thing is juz a joke!! erm... it may seem that the above is actually mocking someone in particular.. eh.. pai seh lah.. no lah.. just a joke nia lah.. dun angry okay?

today is my jap's exam.. chuied... the essay oso chuied..　topic is "my future".. got a lot to say.. but dunno how to write.. stupid one.. teach so little, still want us to write so much.. stupid stupid stupid...


私の将来

　私の専攻はコンピュータ工学ですから、エンジニアの仕事が欲しいです。日本の会社に勤めたいです。それは私の夢です。ですから、今日本語を勉強しています。
　自分の家族も欲しいですが、今彼女がいません。親切で元気で可愛い彼女が欲しいです。それから、結婚をします。子供も二人欲しいです。男の子と、女の子と、どちらもいいです。
　日本に住みたいです。東京が一番住みたいです。東京は忙しい町です。私は忙しい町が好きです。東京で色々で面白い物がありうます。明るくて広くて便利な所できれいな家が欲しいです。
　今私は将来の夢がちょっと遠いです。お金がありませんで、日本語もまだ上手ですから。五年ぐらい後まに又夢へいきます。今にシンガポールに勤めて、日本語を勉強して、頑張ります！

DS lab..

was supposed to go sch to work on DS lab today.. but then.. hmmm.. woke up at 4pm.. and with a thunderstorm outside -> motivation = 0%.. so never go.. told myself i'll start work later tonight..

but luckily, i didnt go sch wor... the KC godlike.. he just msn msg mi saying he's almost done with it le.. !!! that day he told mi he will start working on it on sunday.. but apparently he started early.. well done! so less work for me and jh... =)) i love it...

then i banned him from working on it anymore.. or else i really have nothing to do.. jh working on docu liao.. left nothing for me.. so ban him, and i'll do the rest of the work.. alright, i'll do it tonight... I'LL DO IT!

it's good to have such pple in ur team eh? ho ho ho ho!

updatez...

fyp final draft submitted.. finally.. but i didn't really put in effort for it.. to say the truth.. i dun really care abt fyp liao.. i'm even prepared to stay back 1 more sem to do fyp.. like i've said to some, my ass never tio burn before, so i dunno wat is it to get it burn... all along i've been hovering my ass over the fire nia.. never kena bitten so i will never be shy? =.=" but that's not the end of fyp.. my prof expected mi to go on with it.. wat to do.. i'm not progressing much.. of cos need to work more on it lor..


so wat's next? tml, or rather it's today alreadi, later in the afternoon got a presentation.. it's prof comm one.. sian.. i'm always bad with presentation.. and some more we just started working on it earlier on in the day.. hahhaha.. my whole sch life is abt last minute work..

next is Distributed System lab assignment.. chui.. next tue deadline.. so far i did nothing for it yet.. kc did some alreadi.. hopefully i can get it done during the weekend... from wat i've seen.. shouldn't be a problem bah...

Simulation and Modelling has 2 assignments too.. and i think the deadline is next next week? or next next next week? not too sure.. and no idea wat's the assignment is abt too..

and guess wat... exam is less than 1 month away.. 16th apr.. or 17th? or both? needa check my exam timetable again.. sian.. but luckily at least all the deadlines are not cramped up together.. when i saw the email on exam welfare package in the ntu email, that was really demoralising.. ah... going to see T58 again.. and hopefully for the last sem too.. =\

end of first day of school...

hai... this seems stupid.. i didn't make it in time for my 230pm lecture.. so i'm onli going for my jap class.. 1hr 30min.. and the stupid thing is the transport time (waiting and walking time included), is longer than wat i've attended today.. stupid stupid stupid.. waste of time.. stupid stupid...

got the tat's photo for the chalet liao.. time to filter and sort those photos.. then i'll do a post...

first day of school...

whee~ today's gonna be the first day that i go to sch for lesson.. eh.. wait.. didn't school start like last week? hmmmm... =\ nvm.. today's lessons got a lecture at 0830.. er... it's 1240pm now.. nvm that too.. another lecture at 230pm.. i should be in time for that.. jap lesson at 330pm.. whole day ends at 5pm.. good!

hmmm.. should i drive? if i keep driving, my bus concession is wasted liao.. hmmmm...

ah darn! i kept forgetting to write a post on the chalet.. soon soon...

haunted by fyp...

FYP sucks.. have i said how much it sucks? seriously, how does it benefit us? "experience the stages of a project - research, design, implement, feedback, blah blah blah" what the heck, we did that during IA already.. thanks for giving us another chance.. DUH! it's simply useless.. this stupid FYP.. it's juz benefitting the stupid profs.. why? because we are doing their f***ing research work!

i bet even the management level of the university oso knows FYP is useless.. but why is FYP still around? bcos the bloody deans are also prof! =.=" so dream on.. i think maybe IA is also benefitting the school.. bridging ties to those IA companies by supplying them cheap labour..

anyway.. why i suddenly complain so much abt FYP.. actually, i'm pretty much relunctant to do it even though i'm pressed by the deadline.. i know everyone feels the same.. but, eh, mainly not bcos it's sian or wat.. it's for another reason.. ard 3 days ago, i started doing proper read up and research on my FYP, though i've done a bit during last year.. i'm doing more intensive read up and research, if that makes you feel better.. then for the initial 2 nights.. i can't sleep well at all.. the stuff i've read is haunting me.. my mind is too active...even though i tried to sleep at 3-4am, i can't.. those equations, logics and stuff juz kept popping up in my mind.. each time i put aside 1, another 1 will just pop up... sucks.. end up, i spent at least an hour in bed WIDE AWAKE..

yesterday, i was actually afraid to do my FYP stuff.. scare that i can't sleep again.. for goodness sake, now is actually school term already.. I NEED TO LIVE IN SINGAPORE TIME ZONE! NO MORE EUROPE! so i cast FYP away, and play whole night long.. woot~ at 3am, i felt tired and went to sleep.. immediate KO! well done! that comfirmed my suspect that it was the FYP that's haunting and not before i'm still suffering from 'jet lag'.. and not to mention, i slept for more than 12hrs yesterday.. =)

however, and sadly, i can't afford to repeat wat i've done yesterday.. so i had to work on my FYP again.. so here i am, writing this blog juz bcos i can't sleep.. i've been tossing ard in my bed for an hour alreadi.. and i gave up sleeping.. i'll just sleep later when i'm really shagged out..

BUT! eh.. pls dun think that tossing ard in bed is really a waste of time.. usually when i can't sleep, it's bcos my mind is too active.. too much stuff in my brain and i was thinking hard on them... that's why.. many times.. bcos of this hyperactive brain during sleeptime, i gained knowledge from some sudden enlightenment.. no joke! that actually happened a lot of times alreadi.. this hyperactiveness can even be brought into my dream world..

i remember there was once.. i was thinking real hard, trying to solve a programming logic problem.. in my dream, i even dreamed that i was doing programming work.. although i can't really recall wat the whole dream story was about and how i managed to gain enlightenment, when i woke up, i did really have the solution in my mind alreadi! and that solution worked.. hmmm.. spooky or wat? either it's "someone else" helping me, or i'm really that spooky... GODLIKE!

anyway, ya.. that's problem solving in dreamland.. then just now was another incident of solving thing while wide awake on bed... just now i suddenly realised something that i was reading and wat it was talking abt.. intitially while reading it, i dunno how to link it.. just now i finally managed to link it up... this is wat i called as caching.. read/see/listen something i dun understand yet, put into my brain's cache.. i know i will be needing it soon.. v(^^)v it always works.. even for my exam..

*-=- this portion may be ignored.. too technical... -=-*
lemme share this enlightenment that i've gained just now.. it's abt how to split a number up to binary form and let hardware handle.. let's say a number 27.. we human, one look and we know 17 = 16 + 8 + 2 + 1.. so 27y, y is an arbituary integer, can be broken down into 16y + 8y + 2y + y.. then we juz need to count the individual component and add them up.. we even know 16y = 8y + 8y.. and stuff.. so we can count a lot faster than an electronic device.. faster as in number of steps.. of cos their processing time is still faster than us.. anyway.. ya.. to make electronic stuff to think like us, we need to put in lots of logic to make it think like us... but apparently there is quite a simple way for electronic to process that faster.. i forgot wat the algo name liao.. but it's swee lah..

27 = 0001 1011 .. from left to right.. ignore all leading '0's and first '1'..
process those behind the first '1'..
for an '0', do x2,
for an '1', do x2, follow by +y..
initial value is y..

so.. 0001 1011,
ignore the first 4 bit '0001'..
next is an '1', y x 2 = 2y, 2y + y = 3y
next is '0', 3y x 2 = 6y
next is '1', 6y x 2 = 12y, 12y + y = 13y
next is '1', 13y x 2 = 26y, 26y + y = 27y

*-=. end of technical stuff -=-*

THERE! simple to implement into hardware right? i'm amazed by those genius who thought of these simple to make our lives easier.. or harder when u have to think like a machine during exam, Chinese Remainder Theorem, Euler Theorem, etc etc.. UGHH!! okay.. at least this time it does really make my life easier.. but no doubt, those theorems never fail to amaze me lah.. esp Chinese Remainder Theorem.. 孙子 no only know how to fight war, he's great in maths too man.. WOOT~

okay.. now talking abt this makes me even more alert and active... maybe i should go back and do more reading.. =\ sucks.. this FYP really haunts me to my grave... at least now i have smoke grenades to throw at my prof liao.. *phew*

result..

CPE183 - Engineer and Society
CPE404 - Advance Microprocessor
CPE409 - Computer Architecture
CPE413 - Cryptography and Network Security
CPE425 - Programming Language
CPE479 - Final Year Project
HMJ2 - Japanese Language 2

Exam Yr	Semester	Course	Exam Grade
2007	1	CPE183	C
2007	1	CPE404	B+
2007	1	CPE409	A-
2007	1	CPE413	B
2007	1	CPE425	C+
2007	1	CPE479	IP
2007	1	HMJ2	B+

okay.. 183 got C.. can't complain much.. onli spent like a few hours on that.. and my writing modules always suck big time one..

microP got B+.. woot~ i like that..

comp archi got A-!!! SHOCKING!!! i didn't expect that u know..

crypto got B! that's another shock.. no joke!

programming language.. C+.. the most disappointing result.. haiz....

FYP.. IP = In Progress

jap 2.. B+.. okay lah.. kinda expected that though..

overall, generally.. eh.. i'm pretty satisified with the grade.. bcos this sem i'm really kan slack.. can clear all already super happy liao.. =) WOOT~

my first paper...

oh yeah.. had my first paper today.. wasn't that hard.. A is impossible, B is hard.. well.. let fate decides bah.. i didnt really did my best for thsi sem, but i did my best for the past few days.. hahha.. bloody hell.. i juz can't put myself together for academic matters.. sucks..

lemme explain how i prepare for this paper from the day before... basically only @ the day before, i managed to extract majority of the gist of the whole module.. kinda late ah? when reading thru the notes again during the night, i finally start to see link between all the topics and the whole beauty of this module.. well, at least i did see the beauty of it okay.. but still there are some part i juz can't understand, and it's too late clarify that doubt.. so all i can do is try my best..

given the tips by the prof, and thinking how she would set the paper from what she had said before and stuff.. i was pretty much able to guess wat kind of questions will come out for the paper leh.. so i started to plan strategy for the day before the paper...

i know i was a bit tired, and i couldn't last more than 4 hours.. so how? i take a power nap first lor.. then stay awake for the whole night! actually i deployed this tactic during my A levels before le... and ya, it does work... i can easily shift my bio clock, but uni-directional - shift back my sleeping hours.. to sleep earlier is close to impossible for me..

and so, after my nap, i started attacking on the questions/topics i spotted.. ard 4am, hoot until song song liao.. to play safe, i tried to memorise other stuff which are outta my prediction.. juz to play safe lah ah.. while studying, i was watching ch49 oso.. nothing else better to do mah.. memorising is a veri shag thing to do.. so gotta coupled it with some other activity.. swallow ah.. swallow ah.. swallow ah.. try to gulp down all the info i was reading..

bloody hell, it's raining the whole morning, even before dawn break.. so cosy feeling.. if u put me on my bed, i sure concuss.. so i stayed away from my bed...

then came the time for mi to get prepared and go to sch.. brush teeth, bath, do my hair, pack my bag... then i open fridge trying to find something to drink.. ahh.. saw a can of redbull! that can was a leftover from the sept drinking session.. shawn left it behind one.. great! redbull can keep people awake right? so i opened the can, drank half of it.. *play final fantasy fanfare* power up!!! FIGHTO FIGHTO FIGHTO!

and ya.. my original plan for after the paper was to go back home and hit the bed immediately.. but guess wat? the redbull effect is still on! i think i'm so caffeine intolerant lor.. so duang @ sch.. play facebook and chat on msn using daji's laptop.. chui.. while using his laptop, it crashed twice, and hang thrice.. gg.. think that time chu smoke from the laptop is really a sign alreadi liao lor. something is really wrong with the hardware.. well, it's his laptop, and i'm juz borrowing.. so i shouldn't complain that much ah? hahaha...

duang ah duang.. duang ah duang.. evening time.. the redbull effect was finally over! BUT!! it's the beginning of my ACTIVE TIMING! nocturnal creature.. bleah~ chui.. not even feeling sleepy lor.. went alif for dinner, then back home.. a bit shag feeling liao.. opened the fridge, trying to find something to drink again.. saw that half opened can of redbull.. it's the one which gas one.. so cannot open for too long.. so i thought, aiya, just hoot finish it lah... GG! i can't believe i'm committing the same mistake twice in a day..

there! then i'm SO awake until now.. my eyes are SO SO tired, closing liao.. but my body and my mind juz can't sleep.. chui... and see.. i can even write such a long post here.. now the time is 2:30am.. so u see how long i spent writing this stupid post liao.. -_-" i should not drink redbull next time! unless they have a decaf one.. but wat's the purpose of a decaf one... -_-" x2...

alright, i'll hit the bed.. fatigue is really setting in le...

Good luck to those having paper tml! I don't have much luck left on me le.. i used up a lot today.. and i lent the rest of them to a friend liao, who happened to have exam tml too.. wahahaahaha! so i need to say more jiao wei.. more birds more luck! -_-"

can i use lard instead of luck? i have more of that.. -_-" SOOOOOO COLD~~~ brrrrr... sleep sleep...

Tomorrow mark the first day of my exams

eh.. i juz lifted everything off ng zw's blog.. and gonna do a parody on it.. though i do really mean wat i'm gonna say here..

<< (enclosed is the lifted passage) The first paper of my exam starts tomorrow. Hm.. Hows my revision? i'm dead! so dead! tml is exam liao, and i still mugging at it.. damn, why am i wasting time to write this blog. Its quite hard for me to really focus this sem due to some reasons which i dun wish to say, i dun wish to know, and i dunno. Just pray that all will be well. Well, Like to wish all those who going into the battlefied(Examination halls) GOOD LUCK!!! JIAYOU!!! Especially my NTU clicks - zhenwei, jiehe, chingsiang, sihan, kheechin, eddie, daji, watson, fengcheng n ryan. It will be over soon haha. >>

and thanks for all the good lucks that other friends wished me (oh yes, that includes u too, my fellow retard).. =~~) i'm so touched.. i need it so badly this sem..

and stupid NTU.. my exam venue is Hall F-Function Rms B1 South Spine.. then it has a virtual map for u to check out the location.. it said interactive.. then i speak to the screen "where is hall f?" no answer! alright. .crap.. i know it doesn't work that way.. hahaha.. but hell! i can't even find the freaking exam hall on that virtual map!!! screw the virtual interactive map!

me as the limiting factor...

i think i'm over complacent and overly nua... end up hogging the progress of my Programming Language (PL) lab assignment.. this lab assignment is a group work.. hmm.. team leader actually assigned mi with my tasks weeks ago.. but i kept pushing back the deadline.. over-confident with my capability.

but little did i realise (maybe i did, but i di siao di gong), i'm actually the limiting factor in this team. the others are actually waiting for my part to be done first before they can move on. it's only until today, i finally produced my stuff and pass back to team leader. (note: it onli took me 1 day to finish them.. so that means i actually can finish them many many many days ago liao..) then onli juz now, we realised actually we still got a few more criteria not met. cham.. if only i did that stuff earlier, then they might be able to point out those stuff earlier too..

i'm a person with a pretty much laid-back attitude towards life.. lack of motivations... that's wat my ex told me... i dunno why too.. i juz cant find enthusiasm easily in whatever i do.. i cant seem to find 上进心 in myself.. i'm juz too.. SLACK~ this sem lagi worse.. i cant see myself that slack in the previous sems... what is happening to me? am i over complacent? or am i juz sick of studying, after my working experience during the IA period? i dunno..

let's hope i can get pass this sem smoothly.. and.. Apologies to my fellow team mates. Dudes, sorry that I held up the work.

boring days...

stupid monday... every monday i go sch with only 2 things in mind.. 1) Go to jap lesson. 2) Go swimming. the rest of the lessons in the day is just 顺便 to attend.. ard 12+pm lidat during my lect, wy called me and asked for help.. it seemed that wy and clarence didn't manage to set up the computer properly.. i told him i'll go over after my lect. during the lect, i showed my uni frens jaslin zeh zeh.. woot~ and the other sony girl.. after lecture i went over to clarence's hall, daji went along...

at that time, it's alreadi raining pretty heavily liao.. sian.. since recently it always has been just passing rain, i thot the rain will be over in a while.. the computer not much problem lah.. with the touch of 2 gods' hands, after a while it's able to boot liao..

stupid rain still not over, so we continued stayed there install OS, drivers, debug a bit on the drivers, etc... until 4pm lidat i think.. rain still not over.. so i think no point waiting anymore le.. went home with daji.. sian... monday plan foiled by rain.. irritated...

then today, i just feel so nuah.. wake up feel like nuah.. juz woke up for 2hrs or so onli, i went back to sleep.. just got this nuah feeling... then wake up liao.. alreadi 6pm.. hmmmm.. think tml better go swimming... i ain't losing any weight at this rate.. tsk...

ah.. that's my plane...

today, my fyp tutor flew my plane.. he said every wednesday 5pm meet up.. so i went down.. reach sch @ 430pm.. then i started waiting outside his office liao.. 515pm.. knn he's not back in his office yet.. angry!! so i left.. i went sch specially for this onli, but he not ard! KNN!!! %#@#&@$%#^$

but now i'm back home, i checked my ntu mail..

Dear Wang Sicong,

Please update me your progress, so that we can fix your next meeting as early as possible.

Thanks

Pramod Meher

KNNB!! YOU SAID EVERY WEEK, NOW YOU ACTED AS IF YOU NEVER SAID THAT! AND ACTED MY FAULT FOR NOT UPDATING YOU! U SAID MEET EVERY WEEK TO DO THE UPDATE ONE! NOT OVER EMAIL!! KNN!! CC*!!! F*** YOU!!!

alright.. i should have juz emailed him last night to comfirm everything like wat jh said.. hai...

1. never trust a prof's saying
2. never ever trust a neh prof's saying
3. never ever try to listen to a slacker neh prof's saying

late night thots (20 aug 07)

i've actually been tossing ard on my bed for close to 2 hrs.. couldn't get into sleep.. my brain is still too active.. and i took a super long nap earlier on yesterday.. plus.. i'm a nocturnal being.. awwww... when will i be able to revert back to a normal human being lifestyle...

recently i've juz started on my FYP.. was a little disappointed that it wasn't really wat i wanted.. it doesn't really have anything to do with smart card.. the onli link with smart card is that it is meant for smart card so the design has to be compact and low power consumption.. sucks.. well.. on the bright side, it involves VHDL (Very Highly Dulan Language).. that part is pretty fun.. i guess.. and i hope.. otherwise i really wont be able to find any motivation for my FYP..

FYP isn't the main issue that's actually bugging my mind now.. it's the lonely feeling again.. i was talking to zm yesterday on this.. i have this hollow feeling.. it's a part of me of calling out to someone dear to me, but yet it was an empty image.. i'm alreadi used to commit my life to someonem but now that part of my life is lost.. it's not that i'm missing her or something.. or rather, it is just that that part of me has no one to turn to.. it results in the lonely and hollow feeling that i experienced from time to time now..

i'm not too sure if i'm ready to move on to my next r/s or not.. so that means i have to carry on enduring this torment.. (even if i'm ready, i cannot find oso LL).. i told zm i should just get used to single life.. but he told mi not to.. once u get used to single life, u might become lazy and relunctant to find urself ur other half...

even if i'm ready.. do i dare to find? i'm scare of failure.. (alright, who doesn't right) i wouldnt do stuff i'm not confident of.. and of cos, i know me.. beside looks, i dun think my character would actually appeal to ladies if that person really knows me well.. i may be nice, caring, er.. watever.. if anyone were to judge mi now while i'm still studying.. i'm seen as a guy with no motivation.. basically a slacker and a 败家子.. wow.. that title has been with mi for a long time alreadi anyway.. hahaha.. during the compclub gathering.. they said this.. girls in 10s-20s will go for security.. 20s-30s is in for looks and money.. 30s onwards will be back to security.. not veri encouraging eh?

now.. let's say even if i'm ready and i'm brave enough to find myself a girl.. do i dare to commit? once bitten, twice shy.. nothing is definite.. my past experience has told mi 8yrs doesnt necessarily comfirm anything, except creations of fond memories.. ah! i've juz exhibited the timid side of mi.. =X

although all of the above seem to direct me to juz get used to single life and move on with life, i still yearn for someone who is able to be with me and to fill up that hollow part of my life.. i believe i have no intention of closing up that hole and fully adapt into single life.. if it's meant to be, it will come eventually.. all i can say to myself is to let nature take its course.. so bo pian lor.. endure the loneliness when it's late at night lor.. who ask mi to be a nocturnal creature..

i'm thankful for all my friends who have been keeping me occupied. that does help me to temporarily fill up the hollow feeling. i no longer feel sad, just lonely. =/ endure my complaints in this blog from time to time bah. i think i might have more late night thots coming up in the coming days. =p

pai seh to let u all endure my complaints.. to make it up, i'll intro a nice song to u peeps! but i think most of u know this song liao lah.. it's still good to listen to it once in a while.. Mayday song.. pretty catchy.. not gonna put lyrics in.. or else it will be a lengthy post.. go baidu and find the lyrics if u want..

Enjoy!!

creature of the night roams alone..

fyp 始めました!!

pardon the title.. i wanted something fanciful there.. it simply means "fyp began"! yesterday, i finally met up with my fyp tutor.. hai.. i've been delaying this moment for a month or so le.. it's really time that i should meet up with him.. dreadful fyp.. yesterday i intended to pon the whole day.. i was lying on my bed.. nua-ing.. then suddenly remember i sent an email to my tutor on monday and he might reply the email anytime yesterday.. so i jumped out of the bed and went to check my email. PHEW~ luckily i checked.. or rather, sadly i checked... he replied.. saying 5pm.. T.T that goes my self-declared tuesday off.. it was 2pm when i read the email.. that means i have to rush to sch to attend the 330pm lesson to make my day worthwhile..

finally, after a long awaiting (nua-ing), the moment came~ i finally met up with my fyp tutor.. talk talk talk.. knn!!! i cant understand his heavy indian accented english!!! i kept saying "sorry", "pardon?", bcos i cant really catch wat he's saying!!!!!!!!!! added another star to the difficulty of my fyp.. then i thot it would be better if i juz stick to email.. words are easier to read.. =.=" at the end the talk.. he prompted, "maybe you could meet up with me every week.".. with no response from me yet, he turned ard and checked his timetable.. "how abt every wednesday 5pm?" CRAP!!! WEDNESDAY I ONLI HAVE 1 LECT ON THAT DAY! 230pm to 330pm.. it's my semi-official off day!! and he wanna spoil it!!! FINE!! wat can i say.. juz got to know him.. i thot it wont be nice for mi to do any opposition.. so i juz follow on.. but definitely, a few weeks down, i'll change that! no way wednesday!

yup.. so that started off my fyp.. and i gotta start by doing read up first.. pui~ read, take note, try programs.. fyp sux.... yesterday got a friend say i useless, waste money by skipping lectures.. how? it's really that bad ah?

my first jap lesson...

today i had my first jap lv2 lesson.. feeling quite stress actually.. bcos i never revise.. having my textbook mia is not a valid excuse as i still have the notes to refer to.. nevertheless, i'm still gonna use that as an excuse.. ya.. i never revise bcos my textbook mia.. yeah~ hahaha.. anyway, ya... quite stress lor.. the teacher talk talk talk i need to recall all those vocabs.. think i need to watch my animes and doramas frequently again liao.. not onli on the listening and speaking part.. hiragana + katakana oso gone case.. i'm having problem reading katakana esp.. die.. see lah.. my textbook is so important...

luckily, sadly too, they have revised the syllabus such that all the levels have their syllabus shrinked! so lv1 a reduced of the lv1 i took, and lv2 cover some part of the old lv1 and some part of the old lv2.. so... basically.. for the first half of this jap lv2, we(those who took the old lv1) will be actually revising on lv1 for the first half of the sem, and embarking on the new portion during the 2nd half.. sucks right? so in fact, i'm like studying lv 1.5 lidat.. kns.. now even i take lv3, i think oso not enough to have basic conversation in japan!! THAT GOES MY DREAM OF STAYING IN JAPAN FOR 1 MONTH ON MY OWN! think when i start work, i need to go for jap course by myself.. or else my dream will be shattered! i'll still be going japan! NOTHING CAN STOP ME!!!

something quite pai seh while i'm at south spine.. i'm pretty under-dressed when i'm over there.. think north spine and south spine do really have different dressing habit.. a simple tee with berms and wear sandal is making mi look like an ET over there.. or u can say i look like tiong too.. DAMN IT! i need to buck up on my image over there.. as most of u know, south spine is a heaven of char bors.. bcos... NBS is over there!! I SWEAR! i swear every monday and thursday i'll dress up more appropriately!!! er... crap.. monday and thursday are my exercise day.. damn... i'll see abt it... but definitely i'll try to dress up nicer next time.. i wanna be a lady's vege!!



-appended on same day 5:52pm-



This is a picture of LT2A.. the little guy standing in the front giving lecture is a boring lecturer.. i think he cant give lecture. he dun talk cohesively.. he doesnt seem to organise wat he wanna talk.. sux big time.. anyway, i'm not listening to him either.. i think he will juz mess up my mind even more.. =p ah.. that's jiehe in the bottom right corner.. he's acting to be attentive.. in fact he's either daydreaming or looking elsewhere.. ah.. now he's looking elsewhere.. lazy to snap another pic. juz this will do..

my blog dying...

lemme explain why my blogging is less often now.. there's plenty of reasons for it.... i'll go thru the reasons and talk a bit on them..

1. PS2.
daji recently juz passed mi some games.. and... i'm at it! hahaha.. so wat's there to write abt when i'm juz ps2ing...

2. story books.
SURPRISE SURPRISE! i'm reading books.. yesh.. story books.. monday i went to borrowed 4 story books.. they are part of a series. there's 2 series to that story.. i've actually read the first series before, but well.. i wanna read the 2nd series, so i thot it would be good for mi to refresh my memory on the first series.. so i'm actually re-reading the first series.. 4 books.. and i'm at the 4th book alreadi!! woot~ went to return the first 3 books and tried to borrow the remaining ones.. DAMNIT! stupid jurong point library dun have!!!! guess i'll try my luck tml at je library instead..

3. school starts.
eh.. although i didn't really attend sch much.. hahaha.. but going to and fro sch and attend lesson actually can take up at least 1/4 of the day.. really! eh.. but then again.. tuesday i never attend sch at all.. then it will be the fault of the above 1 and 2. hahaha.. look like my wish can never be realised. "Attend all lessons". -.-"

the above 3 reasons are suffice enough to explain for the lack of happenings in my life... let's move on to next topic..

my slimming programme resumes!!! *Fireworks! pew pew pew~ boom boom boom~* ya.. went swimming on monday and today(wednesday).. although i never really swim nonstop, i kinda made sure that my heart is constantly pumping harder than normal.. once i sense it's getting back to normal, i'll start swimming again.. yeah~ sch pool is now filled with european bikini babes.. but.. i think i still prefer asians.. hahaha..

today we went one rochester chill out.. we consist of mi, zm, shawn, peiling, alex.. kinda weird combi ah? this is wat it is if zm try to jio pple out.. weird combi.. really.. no doubt one.. i believe many can vouch for my statement... weird combi, but then, nevertheless, we still had fun! hahaha.. shawn showed us his photos on his backpacking trip to laos and vietnam. everything looks cool! seriously.. but then.. i think i'm not those who can endure this kind of backpacking stuff.. i'm weak... haaha..

on monday night... i was actually feeling lonely.. then emotion started to surge over me... and... i went to chat with her.. not really chat though.. i was actually probing for stuff.. bad move.. it juz worsen my mood... i sank in deeper... lonelier.. then i glanced thru my msn list.. no one i can talk to.. damn.. sad and lonely definitely compliment each other.. it was a disaster for me... but then! i didnt stop there! i went to talk even more.. probing more.. lame~ i was actually crying alreadi.. and no one to turn to... till then.. i realised.. i'm not over it yet... i'm juz distracting myself most of the time...

how long will this sorrow last... can i juz suddenly climb up the next day? *sigh*

my first day of sch...

today is my first day of sch.. er.. it started @ 0830am.. but.. I WASN'T THERE!!! hahaha.. i was still in la la land. next lesson was at 1230pm.. once again.. I WASN'T THERE!!! i was still in la la land.. *ahem* then until daji smsed mi, i finally woke up.. great~ hahaha.. first day of sch i missed 2 lects liao.. never mind! there's still a 530pm lect!! I'LL BE THERE!!!

weather seems good.. maybe i should go for a swim.. oh ya.. and return my library books.. think they are due by 1 day liao.. 4 books.. =.="