The Story of Backside Itchy

Maybe I should talk about the backside itchy issue.

It was 2 nights ago. I was trying to find my stapler, looking through my drawers and cupboards, high and low. Then I came to this particular cupboard, which I named it as the "Taboo Dimension". Despite knowing that my stapler definitely won't be inside, I still opened it and looked through it. That's the story. Backside itchy.

Photo albums, little trinkets and gifts, etc... It's funny how clear each memory is. I can remember all the stories behind them. Yet in the past, I couldn't even remember which gift was for which occasion. Every item is like bringing me through a memory journey.

I tidied up the cupboard and added more items into it. Well, my room is always in a messy state, so there are stuff, that are supposed to be in there, are not there. Then I suddenly thought about something else. "I've tidied up those stuff, but are my feeling too?"

Hmmm.. I have already let go of her. So what's holding me back now? I've been telling people to introduce female friends to me and stuff, but I wasn't even serious for once. The only time that I was serious enough was last year a few months after the broke up. Guess I was trying to find someone to fill up the void in my heart. Glad that I didn't do anything stupid, but I almost did =p.

But there's something something that's bothering me. Why did it end? How did it end? I recalled the reasons and stuff she had told me, and tried to understand that. But I wasn't able to understand the situation. Actually there are many times I feel like asking her, trying to clarify this "mystery" of the past. But I didn't manage to do so. That would be weird to ask her, wouldn't it? That's something of the past, it's quite a taboo topic, and she has already moved on. I shouldn't be dragging her back into the issue of the past, at least that's what I thought.

So, how do I ignore this problematic issue that have bothering me for so long, but yet retaining the sweet memory? *sigh* =\ Guess I can only hope that I will slowly become numbed to the bothering issue, and keep telling myself to move away from that past.

Oh! I need to state this clear again. I have already let go of her!!! Ya, it's just that issue is still haunting me. That's all!

And ya, regarding the 2nd occurrence of the backside itchy, I was reading DS's (codename used) blog. Saw photos of the MayDay Concert thingy that she had uploaded, I've more or less guessed there might be some photos of that Pig (codename used) and her bf. But I still read on. Think I really wanted to see what my reaction will be. Lame right? Yeah. That's what I did. Indeed, got!! Man, I did feel pretty sour. Hahahahaha!

Attention to R #2 and DS!! If you read this post, keep it to yourself okay? orz

Yup! That's the whole thing behind the backside itchy post. I didn't want to elaborate it previously because I still have a paper the next day, which was this morning. Not good to get myself emo up before the paper. I mean I was already emo, but cannot afford to flare it up.