NMNHNLM

NM:

Still no news on bonus and increment. In fact, rumour is that there will be none. Morale in office getting lower with every passing month. Mind you, the bonus and increment I'm talking here is for LAST YEAR performance evaluation.

Has been dragging since starting of the year. Don't know what's wrong with the CEO and the directors... If don't have, just tell us don't have. Don't just keep us hanging there like that. You think it's fun? Bloody hell...

And just today, I finally heard my team lead complaining about this too. Lol.. All along I thought he won't really complain on this. Usually he just say say nia. Today he was ranting on it.

Just paid a year of insurance. Poorer by 2k suddenly. Time to save up again...

NH:

No fish no nothing. Nothing happen for this area.

NLM:

My mother has been going casino way way way WAYYYY too often! A few weeks ago, I actually didn't really have the chance to talk to my mother for like consecutive 6 days. Okay lah, not really her fault. I was away at KL for like 3 days. The other 3 days, she either went casino or MJ.

What's the hotline for gambling counselling?

My Lame Lao Bu

I don't know how many of you have heard this story, but I'm going to broadcast it here.

Case 1
When govt sent out the letter for the GST Offset Package, my mum asked me how much I got. $200. Then she hinted (she actually said it out exactly) that $200 just nice enough for my dad and her go casino. -_-"

So some time during the week before, I passed them each $100 on top of their monthly allowance.

They went casino the next day.

On the following day, so I asked my mum win or lose. She started to blame me for giving them money go casino to lose money. =| Yes, I suddenly become the sinner...

Case 2
During one day of my ICT, my dad bought durian and offer some to me. Forgot what I did during that day, I was actually dehydrated and feeling heaty, so I rejected the offer. Got quite a lot leftover, so my mum finished all of them up because she lazy to make space in the fridge to store them.

The next day, my mum started to accuse me - because I never eat, she had to finish everything and kena sore eyes due to heaty! -_-" my fault again.. =|



I have a lame lao bu.....

My Uncle

My uncle just passed away last Monday. Thanks everyone for being with me. I'm pretty alright now. Really.

It's scary to think that the people, who are with you for so many years, can just disappear.. just like that. During that cremation day, while on the bus back, I was trying hard to accept the fact that I will never be able to see my uncle anymore. You know so many years, almost for as long as I've been conscious of my life, if I just go down my block during mid-noon timing, he will definitely be there caring for his plants and stuff. However, during that day, I realized that that will never happen anymore. Sometimes, you just take things for granted, assuming they will be around all the time.

Damn. Shouldn't be writing this kind of emo post in office. Could have gone home first then proceed with writing this. Luckily now in office, only few people left behind nia.

On the 出殡 day, there was a live band playing. The first song was already an atmosphere-damping song - 父子情深. My sisters and I clearly remembered that this song was often played (from CD/cassette) by my uncle in his house. We actually got to know this song from him. That song has a nice and touching lyrics too. Yaaa... in fact, most of my interaction with hokkien songs were because of him. Another song that I remembered was 拢是为着你啦. Another favourite song that he would play too.






*breathe in* *breathe out* *calm down*

Anyway, ya... Cherish all that are around you now, before you realize you are losing them.

Frustration...

When you realised you are at a 进退两难 and 左右为难 situation, what can you do? I'm actually starting to feel frustrated being stuck there now. 有口难言...

Time to just 走一步看一步...

Btw, work sucks too. ARGH!

And mum just updated me on my uncle's status. Doctor say he'll still be able to make it through for another 2-3 weeks. Everyone's already making preparation for the worst.

How Does It Feel...

To know that you might be leaving everyone soon? I don't think I'll understand the kind of feeling he has now. =\

A Call @ 1:32am

Just a while ago, my mum's hp suddenly rang. Nobody would call her usually at this kind of timing. I was just hoping it's not something about my uncle. My mum was sleeping soundly in another room, so I went to check the hp. It's my auntie. Double the worries.

Then I took the phone and told my dad that auntie called. I think he was very scared too, and he told me to pass to my mum and ask her to call back to my auntie.

Luckily, it was my auntie who accidentally called the wrong person. She wanted to call my cousin instead. But this was really bad. All of us were like just waiting for the worst to come. Feeling so helpless...

Shocking News

My mum just told me my uncle just left 1/2 yr more to live.

I'm in a total shock now. All along I thought he's doing well with his chemotherapy and medication. Now then I know those are just to prolong his life.

I'm hoping it's just my mum who got the info wrong, because weeks ago, my cousin told me he's doing fine.

Urgh...

Grow up please...

Heard these words from the angel side of me just now. Here's the story. Self-pwned story to say how spoilt brat am I.

I woke up around 140pm just now. Usual routine for weekend will be go wash up, toileting, then search for breakfast. My weekend's breakfast is prepared/bought by my mum one, most of the time...

Open up and see, wah! Lor mee! Nice! Even pour into bowl for me liao. Took a fork and took the bowl up and about to eat. WAIT! My eyes still a bit blurry because I juse woke up, but I saw stuff moving around at the edge of the bowl. Ah... Great.... ANTS INVASION!

Went out to the living room and showed my mum. Maybe I was a bit in the short fuse recently, then I started to blame her. Say why she act smart go pour into bowl first, if still in plastic bag then I can have it already. Don't act smart thinking I will always wake up by 11am or so. She then went to kitchen to see what's wrong with the "anti-ant mechanism" and fixed it a bit, and chased the ants outta of the bowl and told me can eat liao.

=\ My first thought here was.. What? It's sharing food with ants. Not I had leftover for ants wor, it's the ants who had it first before I do! Never mind, I took the bowl again, and look look. Some dead ants dead by the side of the lor mee. You know... Lor mee is sticky sticky one. They got stuck to the lor and dead. *salute* Then I complained again (yesh, like a brat). So she offered to cook instant mee for me instead.

Yesh, at this point of time, suddenly.. really suddenly... The angel side of me had awaken! Think he overslept. The devil woke up earlier. I managed to think through properly lah. She already put in effort, then I shouldn't complain anymore right? Even if I don't want to eat that ant-infested bowl of lor mee, I should go settle my breakfast myself right? So basically now it's my own problem, and I should settle it myself. Stop bothering her.

Alright, so I told her never mind. Forget it. It's okay. 算了.

I ate that bowl of lor mee....... hahahahaha.. Sorry, I was too lazy to cook instant noodle myself. So I just use a spoon to scoop the side of the lor and dump onto the sink. I think I still see some ants (around 2-3) dead in the pool of sticky fluid. Ah! F**k it lah. Ants only, scare wat?

Ate. Pwned. And grew up....

p/s: ah yesh.. i'm 25 already, and i'm still a spoilt brat. FLAME ME!!!

room hopping..

recently doing room hopping.. one day sleep in my room, next day sleep in my sister's room, then next day (if kids not staying overnight) sleep in the kids room.. basically sleeping anywhere i like, except my parents' room...

then came a phone call ten mins ago.. my sis called home and happily said she's coming home this sat for a short trip.. =.=" think she too rich or wat... great! now i gotta tidy up that room and act i've never been using that room at all... *grin*

mum's cullinary gettng worse...

that's it.. i must say it liao.. her cooking skill getting from bad to worse... esp on weekend... it's all because of a thing... MAHJONG! every weekend is her mahjong day.. and she will leave house @ ard 10-11am lidat.. so she will prepare the breakfast to dinner all in 1 shot... so u imagine.. how is she going to do all in juz a morning time..

there are many times when the fried rice she did is too bland, too much garlic, peas not cook yet, or too watery... the bee hoon she did is much like rubber band which is like she never soak enough in the water...

anyway, i'm not saying weekend onli wor.. during weekday oso, sometimes the soup not really well done ah, meat overcook ah, etc.. hai... last time she used to be better at cooking one leh.. maybe due to many factors bah..

• she dun sell noodle liao, so QC drop
• nowadays from time to time got my sis' maid come over with the kids to help out, so my mum dun really need to cook
• the 2 kids are taking up her time, so she has to rush thru the cooking

now i often told her dun cook my dinner for weekend liao.. bcos those food really cmi.. weekend lots is the worst of all.. tsk... if the reason is bcos of kids, i still can take it wor.. but it's for mahjong!! wth... i cannot take that.. that's why i'm trying pick up some recipes every now and then so i can prepare my own dinner, and maybe my dad too.. though my interest in not in chinese cruisine.. hahaa.. i usually prepare jap or western food..

and the reason why i'm finally complaining here is....... she f*cking burned my curry when heating it up in the morning.. i was happy finally can let someone else, i.e. my dad, to try the curry.. but no more.. hate it.. tell me, how to burn curry when all u need to do is juz reheat it at low heat?

i may be sounding like a spoilt brat here.. my mum is doing the whole family a service - doing house chores, taking care of everyone and such.. all she wants is enjoy herself during the weekend as a break by going mahjonging.. but hey! it's not like i've never done anything okay! that's the part i dun understand.. i offered to help her before... i told her before ah, if u dun have time for weekend chores, i'll do it for you.. throw clothes into washing machine and hang them, cook dinner.. but this's her reply.. washing clothes - later u wash not clean; cook dinner - aiya, u will juz create a mess... zzz.. how am i supposed to help her when she's complaining abt me? compromising on the quality on the chores she does, and dun let anyone take over her job..

maybe she doesnt want to lose her "job" in the family.. maybe bcos by securing her "job", she then can feel the need for her in the family.. maybe she's trying hard to monopolise this "job" so no one else can take over her and she can maintain her position and her threats, "fine! i dun cook ur dinner!".. zzz.. i'm juz offering to help out during weekend, not taking over ur "job" and let u "get sack"... zzzz.. okay.. maybe i'm juz thinking too much..

but still damn it! my curry is burnt.. there goes my money..

and there i broke the news... (part 2)

okay okay... this is the last post alreadi! relax.. and a short one..

juz now my mum came home from her mahjonging.. then she asked where i went.. how come never ask her to lobang mi... eh.. lemme give u some backgrd story.. last time when i was still together with eileen.. i used to hang out at her house until late late.. then ask my mum to come and fetch mi at cck.. her mahjong place is bkt pj.. then to save midnight charge, i'll try to ask her to come if the timing is right lah..

but apparently, for a whole of 2 mths, ard there, i havent been asking her to lobang mi at all.. and she dun seem to see mi going out with eileen.. she veri kaypo one lah.. everytime ask mi go where with who.. but of cos during this period, i got tell her lah.. to drop hint to her.. i know she's quite sensitive and kaypo one.. so she'll sure notice something is wrong when i like veri long never go out with her..

so it was juz now, she finally asked (and of cos i expected so.. all within my plan), if i broke up with eileen.. then i juz replied with a "嗯".. short and sweet. then she started to say some stuff and tried to fish for more info and details.. i juz firmly tell her dun ask anymore.. okay.. i know this is rude.. and she got the rights to know.. but i know she wont say anything to console mi or stuff.. and her words are usually filled with spikes.. that's how she is lah.. i think she dun like to say consoling stuff one..but her action after wat she said is different one lah.. usually i'll leave the explaining to my sisters to do..

think i needa tell my da jie asap.. or else she dunno anything and thot i never regard her as my sister lidat.. or not as close lidat.. she's sensitive to this kind of thing one.. but i know i'm not biased towards any of my sisters.. awwwwww.. why my this post so emo sia.. so i better start to explain stuff to her before my mum bombard my da jie.. this is a bad chain reaction.. when she cant get anything outta da jie, she will pester er jie.. worse! then er jie get pek cek and cut off all my incentive! esp when my bday is coming up!! NOOOO!! tml i better go tell da jie..

this post should be a trilogy.. part 3 should be the final... stay tuned!

japanese cultural walk (remake)

well.. this might seem boring bcos it's juz a repeat of wat we did last saturday.. but this time, i was prepared to snap lots of picture to bring more life to wat i've described last week.. and this week, we have an additional of a new member, Sihao (siao).. woot~

although we set to meet at 3pm at PS, that timing was not even close to wat time we actually assembled.. siao newbie to our swiss culture.. and like wat i've told him, we swiss have this special ability - the power to bend time.. in layman terms, rubber time.. yeah.. we can stretch 15min into 1hr.. so as to say, "i will reach in 15min time" in actual fact might mean "i will reach in 1hr time".. nice power ah? hahaha.. and of cos, siao wasnt too pleased abt that.. on my way to dohby ghaut.. on the train.. saw 2 japanese girls boarded the train in yukata!!!
then all i dare to do is secretly took photo of them lor.. humji to walk up to them and request them to take photo, though i've rehearsed the phrases to ask in japanese inside my mind liao.. but.. still humji.. so secretly take lor.. hai.. onli can take backview of the nicer looking one.. she's not bad looking wor.. KAWAII DESU!! wat a start of my japanese cultural walk ah? sorry that a fat neh hand is blocking the view.. she practically took up her standing place + my previous standing place.. kns.. i was pushed back by her lor..

once we assembled at ps, and zm couldn't find the stuff he wants, we quickly proceeded on with our cultural walk. first stop - sunshine plaza... zm juz wont get sick of looking at hobby stuff, just like i cant get sick of looking at japanese supermarket products.. hahaha.. once reach there, upon entering the inside of building, you wont miss this shop..

this shop specializes in selling anime models.. those small models where u just attached the body parts, or maybe dun even to attach anything as it's a one whole piece alreadi..

the figures above is from an anime - Fate/Stay Night.. this is the kind of model i was refering to. anyway, this is a nice anime.. the team that did this anime was the same team that did shingetsutan tsukihime.. both animes were veri nicely drawn one.. and plots are pretty good too.

the next shop is more of a manga lounge.. there's place for u to read manga inside, and it's lots of manga inside.. and the stuff they sell.. more like pple rent a place to put their items there to sell... but pretty good for a nice place to read manga.. but i'm not too sure if need to be member or not.. bcos i never try.. take note of the shop name.. crap~ hahaha.. there's a specialized model shop somewhere opposite this shop.. it sells lots of gundam models.. and of cos some other models u dun seem often in normal hobby shop.. this zm, noticed patlabor ingram 2 (model #2) last week.. and he veri gian to buy liao, but never buy.. this week he wanted to buy liao... TOO BAD!! it's reserved by someone else alreadi!!! onli left ingram 1 (model #1).. serve him right for hesitating! then siao did some more cek ang.. he asked the shop owner when reserved one, she said 1-2 days ago.. WOOT~ it's rubbing salt on wound man! siao and mi had a good laugh on it..

that kinda ended our walk at sunshine plaza, so we carried on to our 2nd stop - liang court.. this time we juz went straight to meidiya..

laiyi said abt sesame dressing for salad... but i couldnt find it leh.. but this is the closest i can find there.. it's sesame paste.. and on the picture i saw the paste spread on top of a salad like dish.. but still dun dare to comfirm that this is it.. so never buy for him.. will need to do more research on it..

the other duo were spending a lot of time looking at sashimi.. juz to make themselves drool as it was alreadi dinner time.. then i joined in the fun. those sashimi definitely look fresher than we get to see in sakae.. hahaha.. but of cos, expensive... finally, we decided to go for dinner..

we went to tomton and tampopo which is inside meidiya too.. this is zm and siao looking at the menu. left side is tampopo, and right side is tomton.. u entered from the left side though.. they are linked..

the speciality of tomton is their black pig (pork)!!! look at the logo, it's cute ah? LOOK AT THE CUTLET!! OISHII DESHOU?!?

we were assigned to the room of the restaurant, i.e. not the general dining area.. more exclusive lidat.. interesting ah? the table is a shallow type with a hole below for u to put ur leg if u choose to sit instead of kneel.. and who would actually kneel.. zzzz.. beside if u kneel, the table would be too low for u to eat.. so sit is still better lah..

we order ramen.. their speciality - black pig (pork) shabu ramen! they claimed that the soup is cooked for 2 days one.. and believe mi, even if that claim of them isnt true, but the soup is damn nice.. it may look spicy, but it isn't.. really.. the ramen itself is veri filling le..

we oso ordered omelete rice too try! woot~ hahahaha.. i've been always wanting to try japanese style omelete rice ever since i watched "tiger & dragon", a jap dorama.. and it's nice too!!! ahh.. the omelete is nice~ and of cos, we ordered the cutlet too.. but eh.. it came later, and i was too busy eating liao.. so i forgot to take a photo of it with my hp.. but i did take using siao's hp..

we actually wanted to order some desserts to eat too.. but zm and mi buay tahan liao.. too full! we sat there.. waiting for my stomach to digest those food and hoping to move to dessert.. but unfortunately, we couldnt do so.. so we left the restaurant, leaving the conquest of the dessert for the next time.. but we did try something else instead.. hahha.. we bought a pudding~ AHHH~~~ that's a craving i had since i watched "my boss my hero", another jap dorama.. those doramas are having bad influence on us sia... we bought this pudding with caramel.. first scope.. put into mouth.. AHHHHHH~~~ I'M IN HEAVEN!!!! I NEVER KNOW JAPANESE PUDDING TASTE LIKE THIS AND GODLIKE~~~~ AHHHH!!!!! u know.. u put the pudding between ur tongue and the roof of ur mouth cavity.. then u go mash it and grind it.. AHHHHHH~~ that feeling~~~ it's simply heavenly.. i believe those selling in tomon might be a level higher! gotta try it next time!!!

leaving liang court, we began to walk towards central, while passing through merchant court area.. spotted a few nice chill out place and dessert place... ahhh.. next time we could try those cafes/bars/restaurants.. they seem goo

before crossing the bridge to the other side of the river, saw this performer.. pretty cool.. but hor.. no one donating lidat leh.. quite sad.. er.. that includes mi too.. =p

when we reached central, we went straight to the "supermarket" as said by mr ng zhenwei.. eh... i think it look more like a convenient shop than supermarket leh..................... though it's called yamakawa super.. hmmm..

then we went to the upper levels of central.. then we saw tomton again!! but then ah.. hmmm.. their menu slight differ.. same to their pricing... this tomton here hor, got shabu shabu!!! but a bit steep.. ard 30 odds after those plus plus per pax...

and this curry udon restaurant.. most probably our next target japanese restaurant to try.. zm has this craze for curry udon.. dunno why...

today we mainly look ard for food lah.. that was my mission by the way.. hahahha.. yup.. and with that, we ended our day at central, and our japanese cultural walk.. hey! if any of us interested in this walk, zm and mi would be happy to bring u through all these again! hahahaha.. i think we'll never get sick of this...


-miscellaneous-

as usual, i'm clearing my hp's photos..

this piece of art.. hahaha.. i dunno.. it captivated my heart.. this is actually made by wayne (my nephew) for her mum (my sis).. looks sweet hor? that day my sister was sick.. and was quarantined in my other sis' room.. so that whole night, her children never got to see her.. then this wayne actually went to make this thing here and placed it in her bag.. darkness moment of the night came and everyone went to sleep.. i secretly took out this piece of paper and took a photo of it.. bcos i really find it sweet.. awwwwwwww~~ he even bothered to ask mi how to spell some words wor when he's making it.. he dun like asking mi things one.. bcos he dun like to give mi a superior kind of feeling..


this next photo ah.. was supposed to put together with swiss comp club there one.. er.. but hor, that post quite some time ago liao.. so i'll juz put it here.. it's to suan siao rene she got no space to move her arms ard.. old joke liao.. and er.. a bit lame..

and there i broke the news... (part 1)

woot~ finally done with part 1.. told my er jie abt the broke up... i never thot she would actually care for mi that much. hahaha.. she did bother to ask why and stuff, though her first accusation was that i like another girl.. kns.. do i look like that kind of person?!? @!@#%$@!#

then she offer to give mi advice if i need any claiming that she was there once.. so sweet of her ah? she finally sees the reason behind my enthusiasm for working out and restyling myself.. to be back in the market.. so as to say to call myself lady's vege still match leh.. market sells vege mah.. okay.. lame..

now, this is the important part of the whole conversation. she offered to give me money!!!

Bimbo says (3:13 AM):
i m willing to invest 200 so that u can look good

okay.. those who dunno who's Bimbo, that's my er jie's nick in msn. yes, she's a bimbo. er.. i mean she's Bimbo. whatever.. she's a bimbo anyway.. 200 bucks.. maybe i should accept it ya? then my shopping list can be reduced!!! but nah... there's always price behind all her offers! wahahahahahaha!! i'm not stupid enough to take them now!!

1 down, 3 more to go.. sis, dad and mum.. these 3 are in an alliance.. my ultimate aim is dun wan my mum to come pestering mi asking why and stuff.. bcos she's veri naggy one.. so anyone in the alliance knows = she knows.. my plan would be tell her late late, then i can juz brush away her questioning by saying, "so long ago liao still ask for wat.. let's juz move on.".. woot~ let's see when would be appropriate...

blessing in disguise?

the previous i complained abt taking over colleague's work.. well.. i went down to SNEC and saw my grandma! wow.. kinda happy to see her.. ya.. and my cousin.. she's there to do some minor day surgery review... ya.. spent part of my lunchtime chit chatting with her.. but came an usual but now awkward question.. when am i getting marry.. she has always been asking mi this question.. all along i've been answering and telling her dun worry, she sure can see mi getting married one.. but today.. i dun have the confident of saying that.. i juz brushed that question away and went on talking abt something else..

nice chatting with her.. happy that i saw here that and accompanied her.. though not for long and er.. communication barrier.. my hokkien sux big time.. my cousin kept laughing at mi.. yeah.. so end of the day i never really think badly abt taking over my colleague's work anymore.. it's kinda good.. =)

lemme intro another song.. mayday one again.. er.. i'm not mayday craze.. i have to say again.. but their songs are really good..



五月天 - 拥抱
脱下长日的假面 奔向梦幻的疆界
南瓜马车的午夜 换上童话的玻璃鞋
让我享受这感觉 我是孤傲的蔷薇
让我品尝这滋味 纷乱世界的不了解

昨天太近 明天太远 默默聆听那黑夜晚
风吻尽 荷花叶 任我醉倒在池边
等你清楚看见我的美 月光晒干眼泪
那一个人 爱我
将我的手 紧握
抱紧我 吻我 喔爱~~~ 别走

隐藏自己的疲倦 表达自己的狼狈
放纵自己的狂野 找寻自己的明天
向你要求的誓言 就算是你的谎言
我需要爱的慰借 就算那爱已如潮水

抱紧我 吻我 喔爱

a little update on this, and some update on that...

for those who are concern abt me and my problem.. well.. i think i'll do a little update here.. i still havent given up hope, though my will is slowly fading.. but i'm still hanging on.. yeah.. thx for all the encourage u all gave.. however to those who encourage to turn my head over and look at other pasture ard.. well.. i'm sorry.. hahaha.. i'm not doing it that soon yet... but dun worry.. i have my plan.. Wont be talking much on it until the whole thing is settled completely.. yeah.. thx everyone..

other updates abt mi, i guess it will be the en bloc thing. yup! my block is selected for this en bloc.. then next year mid need to decide where to stay and wat to do.. so my parents started asking us if we are going to stay with them.. the scheduled time for us to move is 4-5 years away.. then i think.. 4-5years.. i would be outside working for 3years liao.. my plan for life is to get marry 3years after graduation.. even though now dun have anyone, well.. i'll still stick with that plan lah ah.. i mean nowadays it's common to get marry juz after 1-2yrs of dating right? haha..

so.. my decision is to move out.. dunno whether it's a good/right thing to do or not.. my parents will be lonely... but i dun like that new place.. it's deeper into teban.. although teban isnt that big, still, it's lot more inaccessible.. when i work i definitely would want a more convenient place for staying mah.. some more.. my parents can opt for a smaller flat.. then make a profit outta it.. that sum of money can give them as retirement money.. haha.. of cos i'll still be giving them money lah.. but it's good for them to have more money.. then they can start travelling ard the world..

sad.. dunno it's heng or suay.. suay i'm single now? or heng i'm single now at least i got more time to plan for my future regarding this en bloc issue.. but i've more or less made up my mind le.. even not married yet, i'll still move out bah.. need a change of environment.. when marry liao then see if it's possible to shift them in to stay with me lor.. that's the general plan of mine.. =D

oh ya.. so far.. my email box is still empty.. apparently no one has sent in their application form yet.. i think i haven't say start.. maybe that's why.. okay.. the mailbox is open!! my criteria veri simple!! juz need to be a female! hahaha.. okay.. lame joke.. sleep..

i need a life!!