open shop!!!

okay.. open shop again! been spending most of my time with another super eng guy recently.. but think he's going to be bo eng soon.. he's starting work soon.. luckily, my sch starting next week.. so.. ya.. phew~ end of my boring period..

some pictures to show here...


this one.. my mum dunno why go and cut my niece hair until like this.. i really got nothing to say.. so cute girl, let her cut until so ugly.. tsk..



not that i dun wanna carry on my slimming programme.. look at the sky!! wa lao.. how to swim?



my new hairstyle.. er.. hairstylist suggested that i shouldnt cut too short bcos my face is round and big.. so.. this is the shortest she proposed.. ya..

yeap! shop opens again.. and i'll resume writing now! new hair new life!

close shop...

eh... i think i wont be writing for a few days or so bah... not bcos 店主有喜.. but eh... taking a short break... yeap!

LOOK OUT FOR THIS SPACE!

heroes ruined the day..

eh... i didn't fulfill my plan.. again.. hahahaha.. well.. IT'S "HEROES" FAULT AGAIN!! i watched until 8am lidat then sleep.. by the time i woke up not early liao.. but i did go down lot 1 play arcade with zm.. hahahaha.. never mind.. everything will be ended tonight.. wont drag it for long.. it's bugging my head all the time.. i mean the drama.. I GOTTA FINISH IT TONIGHT! LAST 4 EPS!.

went down lot at 3pm plus.. met up with zm at arcade.. we were there to test out our san guo 2 again.. haha.. we rusty a lot.. er.. we arent that pro either.. so no diff.. hahaah. juz trying to blame on something else.. play play a bit.. well not really a bit. .we played arcade until 520pm lidat.. went over to next door to see those ufo catcher machines.. look at an auntie play those catch sweet machines with jackpot.. see see see.. finally see her win.. then we tried to decide our next plan..

5+ for dinner would be early.. consider that he had his lunch @ 3pm lidat.. and i had mi at 2pm+.. so we need another activity.. go down bugis wasnt a good idea bcos it's rush hour soon.. hate it.. then since cinema is juz upstair.. so we thot why not check out got wat show. ahhh.. today is first day of simpson.. hahaha.. so we check out the timing.. 550pm. and the time 540pm.. WOOT~ so nice.. so we juz decided on it lidat...

it's been a long time since i had such happening day.. sponetaneous decision making.. think the last time was when. er.. before he went aust... ya.. long long time ago.. hahaha.. simpson ah.. eh.. it's onli 1hr plus a bit.. veri short.. it's definitely not worth the weekend price.. but well.. er.. movie still okay lah, if u like simpson.. i dun mind it though.. hahaha.. it's funny lah! hahaha.. u'll juz laugh throughout the show! er.. unless u r rene lidat, sleep during movies.. =X

here's a trailer on it.. this one rox...



tml will be lan gaming day! WOOT~ finally! hahha..all of us hand itchy liao.. BF2 is quite fun.. but dunno how long we will be gaming there..

hairy potty... and heroes!

hahaha.. i didn't execute my plan!!! I NEVER GO SWIMMING!! well.. there's a veri good reason.. it's all co's fault.. i hate her!! she made mi gian to watch heroes.. so.. i watched heroes last night.. from late night till this morning.. WOOT~ I'M ADDICTED!!! then afternoon wake up straight away i resume watching it again! i like the plot! it juz keeps getting better!

it's scary.. i juz kept watching it on and on and on and on.. almost late for my appointment.. luckily i reached there right on dot. 7pm.. taking free ride from fk.. yeah.. watched hairy potty.. eh.. personally, i find this time the movie is pretty nice.. dunno why.. i think i prefer this to goblet of fire.. hmmm.. maybe bcos the book was too boring in the starting.. so didnt give mi a nice impression on the book.. the movie, instead, has a better opening to the plot.. ya.. personal opinion onli! dun flame!!

let's see wat am i going to do tml.. dunno if i'm able to swim tml or not.. think should be going arcade with some jiu hu kia.. with or without him, i think i needa make a trip down to bugis tml.. juz realised i have no casual clothing!! need to update on my wardrobe.. from long sleeves to tee shirt.. GO GO GO!! and.. I'LL BE WATCHING HEROES AGAIN TONIGHT!!!

my new life.. (tuesday)

well.. finally making my 2nd step of slimming programme.. go exercise.. went swimming today.. dunno it's up there against mi or wat.. everytime i wanna go swimming, the sky sure dark dark one.. dunno why.. but still, i went.. determined! veri motivated!

1 lap.. 2 lap.. 3 lap.. 4 lap.. struggling.. 5 lap.. 6 lap.. 7 lap.. 8 lap.. panting like hell.. 9 lap.. 10 lap.. 11 lap.. 12 lap.. buay tahan..cannot take it anymore.. took a short break.. 13 lap.. 14 lap.. KO!!!! done.. cant swimming anymore.. hahahaha.. weak.. 14 laps onli.. when i think back abt last time.. 30 laps was onli a warm up.. not to mention 16laps of butterfly is oso a warm.. now juz 1 lap of butterfly can kill me.. zzzzzz..

as the sky starting to drizzle, i made out my way out of the pool, bathe and gone.. *poof* went down to chinatown.. meeting co for dinner.. but well.. i was too early!!! gotta rot 1hr odd at chinatown.. but amazingly.. i walked CK and those shops ard, time passed veri fast.. soon the time was 7pm, and co was abt to off work.. went to the nearby Jerry's BBQ and Grill to eat..

had dinner for 2hrs maybe plus a bit.. talk craps.. dunno if i bored her or not.. hahahaha... i'm a geek.. anyway.. juz realised that she cant take chilli! oops.. she's kinda allergic to chilli.. i think now then i know.. nice catching up with her.. and we arranged to go cycling at ECP on saturday! provided got pple wanna go, that is... hahahaha..

930pm, rushed down to boon lay immediately... gotta meet a seller.. hahaha.. I FOUND MYSELF ANOTHER COMPANION OF LIFE!!! PS2!!! hahaha.. bought this PS2 from a forum guy.. juz now plugged in and tested.. woot~ but havent test the gun yet.. PEW PEW~~ at least i've found another thing to kill time now.. hahahaha..

i will going to swim again tml.. bcos tml stupid starhub doing line servicing.. no teebee no internet from 9am to 6pm.. so go out again lor.. havent planned my afternoon yet.. think maybe i find some arcade to kill some time mah.. evening will be meeting friends to watch hairy potty.. i think i'll either arcade or movie marathon before that.. co juz recommended some anime movie to mi.. and i'm tempted to watch them now!

NEW LIFE!!!

WOOT~ my last day at work!! finally released! finally...... but felt kinda sad before i left the office.. kept looking at the surrounding.. hahaha.. guess i'm really a sentimental guy.. but still.. I'M DONE WITH IT!!! TO HELL WITH DART(the company name)!

starting to pack my week with activities.. excited. 1st stop is wednesday watching hairy potty.. i'm still trying to see wat i can do for tml... FRIENDS! CARRY ON ASKING MI OUT!!!

wrong use of words...

sian.. think i got her angry juz now.. with my wrong use of word... if you (the 'her' in the previous sentence) are reading this, i apologise for that!!! sorry...

-deleted- *er.. misleading text.. so gotta remove them..*

i may be dumb.. i may be stubborn.. but i'm juz seeking for an answer.. i believe not knowing the truth is more disturbing than knowing it..


p/s: i'm still very free.. friends.. i'm really available to go out! or else i'll be just gaming all day long.. and i'm getting sick of it!!

Boring life! Straight ahead! Fire!

it's onli 12pm+ and i can see a boring weekend ahead.. SAVE ME!! friends! anyone seeing this post now, quick ask mi out!! yes, you zeming, you oso can.. but no JB pls..

something i noticed while looking through friends' blog.. similar post.. ahahahaa.. bcos we went out together or something, so end up we describing the same thing.. but each of us has a different feeling to it.. so it's interesting to see wat my friends are thinking and feeling regarding to the same thing that we've gone through.. v(^.^)v

I need a new life... (9*.*)9 t(*.*t)

rotting out with frens...

today.. er.. yesterday evening.. zw flew back to aust le.. mi, seng, rene and zm went to send him off.. the smallest scale ever.. think bcos this time he came back with a low profile.. that's why.. after sending him off, we went to ECP to walk walk and er.. rot... a more proper word to use is hang out.. basically we did nothing when we were at ECP.. talking all sorta stuff.. but think rene a bit bored.. bcos we discussed quite a great deal of games.. hahaha.. sad for her.. but well, she stayed awake throughout the rotting session.. WELL DONE!! after ECP on the way home, i showed relunctancy to go home.. dunno if it's my influence or wat.. we decided to go for a short supper... woot~

nice evening/night.. got frens to accompany mi.. in fact, i was feeling down.. so it's heng that they were ard.. hahaha.. oops.. i've used them without them knowing.. well.. i'm feeling down all the while.. but today.. i almost couldn't take it... i thot i'm ready to face her and be normal.. caught a glimpse of her.. and realised i'm not ready yet.. feel bad that i had to postpone her bday treat.. i'm doing a lot of thinking recently.. until i have headache.. at least, luckily, i'm not getting sleepless night anymore... sleepless night + headache would definitely kill mi...

wet morning...

i'm wet.. er.. literally wet... stupid morning rain so heavy for wat!?! got my whole body drenched... bloody hell.. some more i stood at the road divider there waiting to cross the road.. the cars drove past mi juz kept splashing water on mi.. i use the umbrella block, the raindrop fell on mi.. and it's darn heavy.. either way i block, i'm still dead.. no horse run.. #$^%$#^@$#%@$#%@$#%

since yesterday another song juz kept ringing in my head.. Rick Price - Heaven Knows.. This song was my primary fav eng song.. my fav song for that era.. and.. THANKS CORINNE!! she er... gave mi a chance to listen to that song again.. NO! SHE NEVER FILE SHARE!! SHE DIDN'T! hahaha..

blessing in disguise?

the previous i complained abt taking over colleague's work.. well.. i went down to SNEC and saw my grandma! wow.. kinda happy to see her.. ya.. and my cousin.. she's there to do some minor day surgery review... ya.. spent part of my lunchtime chit chatting with her.. but came an usual but now awkward question.. when am i getting marry.. she has always been asking mi this question.. all along i've been answering and telling her dun worry, she sure can see mi getting married one.. but today.. i dun have the confident of saying that.. i juz brushed that question away and went on talking abt something else..

nice chatting with her.. happy that i saw here that and accompanied her.. though not for long and er.. communication barrier.. my hokkien sux big time.. my cousin kept laughing at mi.. yeah.. so end of the day i never really think badly abt taking over my colleague's work anymore.. it's kinda good.. =)

lemme intro another song.. mayday one again.. er.. i'm not mayday craze.. i have to say again.. but their songs are really good..



五月天 - 拥抱
脱下长日的假面 奔向梦幻的疆界
南瓜马车的午夜 换上童话的玻璃鞋
让我享受这感觉 我是孤傲的蔷薇
让我品尝这滋味 纷乱世界的不了解

昨天太近 明天太远 默默聆听那黑夜晚
风吻尽 荷花叶 任我醉倒在池边
等你清楚看见我的美 月光晒干眼泪
那一个人 爱我
将我的手 紧握
抱紧我 吻我 喔爱~~~ 别走

隐藏自己的疲倦 表达自己的狼狈
放纵自己的狂野 找寻自己的明天
向你要求的誓言 就算是你的谎言
我需要爱的慰借 就算那爱已如潮水

抱紧我 吻我 喔爱

i need a break.. i think...

okay.. i think i really need a break.. boss dun seem wanna let mi go, bcos i'm a cheap and good worker.. and i need to por him, if i wanna go on in this smart card field next time.. but i really need a break! a long break.. to slowly enjoy the passing time.. able to think stuff at my own pace and environment.. relax whenever i can.. hide when i want.. dun have to put on a false front when i'm alone.. i'm so so so tired..

imagine, i'm planning to have thursday as my last day, which is tml.. today i'm still required to go down to site to supervise on some issues.. that project isn't mine.. bcos that person in charge went for ICT.. kns.. and some more this one is colleague ask mi to take over one.. i wont say no to my colleague.. boss i would more likely to say no..

beside workplace i still have some other personal issue too.. sucks.. sick... argh... I NEED A BREAK!!!

a little update on this, and some update on that...

for those who are concern abt me and my problem.. well.. i think i'll do a little update here.. i still havent given up hope, though my will is slowly fading.. but i'm still hanging on.. yeah.. thx for all the encourage u all gave.. however to those who encourage to turn my head over and look at other pasture ard.. well.. i'm sorry.. hahaha.. i'm not doing it that soon yet... but dun worry.. i have my plan.. Wont be talking much on it until the whole thing is settled completely.. yeah.. thx everyone..

other updates abt mi, i guess it will be the en bloc thing. yup! my block is selected for this en bloc.. then next year mid need to decide where to stay and wat to do.. so my parents started asking us if we are going to stay with them.. the scheduled time for us to move is 4-5 years away.. then i think.. 4-5years.. i would be outside working for 3years liao.. my plan for life is to get marry 3years after graduation.. even though now dun have anyone, well.. i'll still stick with that plan lah ah.. i mean nowadays it's common to get marry juz after 1-2yrs of dating right? haha..

so.. my decision is to move out.. dunno whether it's a good/right thing to do or not.. my parents will be lonely... but i dun like that new place.. it's deeper into teban.. although teban isnt that big, still, it's lot more inaccessible.. when i work i definitely would want a more convenient place for staying mah.. some more.. my parents can opt for a smaller flat.. then make a profit outta it.. that sum of money can give them as retirement money.. haha.. of cos i'll still be giving them money lah.. but it's good for them to have more money.. then they can start travelling ard the world..

sad.. dunno it's heng or suay.. suay i'm single now? or heng i'm single now at least i got more time to plan for my future regarding this en bloc issue.. but i've more or less made up my mind le.. even not married yet, i'll still move out bah.. need a change of environment.. when marry liao then see if it's possible to shift them in to stay with me lor.. that's the general plan of mine.. =D

oh ya.. so far.. my email box is still empty.. apparently no one has sent in their application form yet.. i think i haven't say start.. maybe that's why.. okay.. the mailbox is open!! my criteria veri simple!! juz need to be a female! hahaha.. okay.. lame joke.. sleep..

i need a life!!

funny sunday.

yesterday was a day filled with a number of funny incidents... we went to siao's house to play board game.. 1 last time before he flies back to aust.. anyway, it was his bday too.. but kinda pai seh u know.. on his bday, he still has to be the driver.. I'M SORRY ZW!!!

eh.. wait... this is spposed to be a funny post.. ya.. so back to topic.. the funny day began with siao's sister.. we reached his house, then his sister was trying to open the door for us... she tried the 1st key, cannot open.. tried the 2nd key, cannot open.. tried the 3rd key, cannot open.. tried the 4th key, YESH! it opened.. then i made a comment saying own house oso dunno which key.. then someone added in that there were onli 2 keys in that bunch.. =.=" sweat... then all of us started laughing at his sister.. hahaha..

the next incident.. was a 2 episode story.. ep1.. they wanted to order mac for some ice milo and nuggets for a snack.. i'm on diet, so no no for mi.. and also still feeling quite full.. then siao made a call to mcdonalds.. the operator asked for the house number.. siao: "er.. wait ah.. *look through his handphone telephone book* *laughs* i think i'll call back later, i go check it out!" hahahah!!! he didn't know his house number! some more on the phone with the operator for quite some time alreadi..

ep2.. siao managed to get his house number after some time and call mcdonalds again.. this time he managed to give his house number to the operator.. so here comes the ordering part.. he asked ard who want what.. zw said milo peng.. zm said milo peng, weijie said milo peng.. siao:"*to all of us* so all milo peng ah? *to the operator* 4 milo peng" *stunned* then siao realised something he said was wrong.. MILO PENG!!!! MCDONALDS CALLED THEM AS ICE MILO!!!!! hahahahahha.. then all of us bursted out into laughters.. laughing all the way.. siao even claimed that the operator oso buay tahan liao.. some more think is the same operator as ep1.. BEST! and he became the joke of the day.. *applause*

bad day...

think today is a bad day for mi.. even though i tving and gaming whole day... just kept having a unsettling mood.. maybe i'm thinking too positively all the time.. today it juz suddenly struck mi hard, and reminded myself that things can go wrong too..

i'm falling back into the pit...

i'm missing her...

return of the fag...

over the week, i've realised my blog like has no life.. maybe due to the lack of fag-ness in it.. remember? this blog name is fag-astic blog.. how can it dun have life? pointed by various friends, it's bcos daji is having reservist.. he's protecting us!! awwwwwwww.. anyway, ya, without his presence, the blog has juz lost its fagness in it..

then quite a few days ago, i started missing him.. this blog juz need to be touched by that fag to retain the faggish feel.. then other fag-inflenced friends started to imitate him.. trying to bring in that feel artificially.. nope.. juz dun have that feel.. FINALLY! THE DAY HAS ARRIVED! HE'S BACK!!! my previous post has been touched by His Fagestry! woot~ but sadly.. on the same day, zw's blog has been defiled.. *mourn in silence*

Here's the dictionary on the fag word.
fag - niao ren (not gay, somehow the meaning of the word has changed)
fagastic - fag (fantastic level)
faggish - fag-like
fagness - the fag-like feel
Fagestry - Daji (Majestry level)

Then seng and mi made some paraody to Transformer too..
Transfagger - Transform equivalent
Autofags - Autobots
Optimus Fag - Daji (Optimus Prime)
JazzedFag - Zhenwei (Jazz)
Fagronhide - Seng (Ironhide)
Bumfagbee - Me (Bumblebee)
Defagticon - Decepticon
MegaFag - Gerry (Megatron)
Allfags - Allspark

note: it's alright if u dun understand the above joke.. bcos i started to think it's veri lame too.. i apologise for it.

Disclaimer : This blog does not warrant or assume any legal liability or responsibility for any mental/physical(in case u laugh and fell off) damages suffered in the course of reading this post.

-appended-
I've added the disclaimer at the btm of the blog liao.. so it applies to all posts now..

no more ORD!!

i thot i'm leaving this sucky company by next monday.. outta sudden.. my she-boss asked mi to go along with a meeting today of another project... she says bcos my colleague is away for reservist next week, so i can help him dong his project.. zzz.. i almost thot i'm leaving right on monday after i finish the last event for my last project lor.. devasted.. chuied.. gg.. owned..

my he-boss and she-boss always quarrel when they cant see eye to eye.. which often happens.. funny.. it's not juz on business stuff.. even daily stuff they oso can argue.. like er.. booking of bbq, who's gonna drive, etc... even though they quarrel so much, hey, they are together for so bloody long alreadi.. but quite interesting though.. u can see them get into a heated arguement.. 15min later they are like normal alreadi.. think they got lots of cool down training.. pro..

in the office, i think i'm sensing envious coming from all angles.. from my colleagueS... imagine this.. office onli 2 internet stations.. lots of shitty project on hand.. at the corner of ur eye, u saw a fat boy sitting there giggling and look like he's having fun.. then u go and approach him.. knn! msning and edmwing.. how would u feel? hmmm.. i think that's what my colleagues feel.. hahhaha.. but really bo pian mah.. I GOT NOTHING TO DO! JUST LET ME GO, WON'T YOU?

wrapping up my work..

let's talk abt something else.. i think my previous few posts made my blog shroud with a dark aura of solemnness.. er.. that sentence sound weird, but i think u get wat i mean..

yeah.. today went down to suntec for a demonstration.. not those riot demonstration, 'LIVE EARTH LIVE EARTH LIVE EARHT!', but my project demonstration.. early in the morning took 97 down.. i would always prefer to take a long journey bus to taking mrt.. bcos.. i dun like mrt? anyway.. the bus journey is ard 1hr + a little.. usually i'll juz KO in the bus... sleep until backside pain, then woke up.. woot~ cbd area.. OLs! conclusion: no matter how depress a man is, his eyes never rest...

i juz realised my taste of target (for my eyes) has changed.. now i'm kinda into OLs.. last time used to be those jc/poly/uni gals.. think it progresses with my age too.. along the journey, my eyes juz scan from left to right, right to left, repeat.. yeah.. that's my morning for today.. the stupid presentation onli lasted for 5min the most.. the rest of the time i was juz there listening to my boss talking abt politics with the IDA pple.. boss commented on my application GUI.. there's marquee title bar, a button with changing caption, self-made logo and stuff.. he said i gotta to be a genius and too much time le.. haha.. i dont care wat he says though.. bcos i really got too much time..

during lunch, i received a weird sms.. why i call that sms weird.. bcos the sms sender was named "Eileen".. i was thinking "err.. who?" then i remember oh, i've changed it.. u know.. i dun usually call her by her name.. so i'm juz not used to that name yet... had a little sms conversation with her over the lunch.. pretty nice.. but no.. i shant give myself high hope..

afternoon got kinda boring.. msn the whole afternoon.. then i decided to go for a walk.. on the excuse that i'm going to the nearby bookshop to photocopy a stack of documents (which i really need to do), i took a slow stroll.. feel like some ah pek enjoying a slow walk in the park.. and, there! that's my afternoon..

pretty boring ah? bo pian.. no special proj on hand.. bcos i onli need to wrap up whatever i was assigned in the first place... now my work is more or less done.. except 1 last event on monday.. that's why i'm still in the office, doing nothing.. yeap.. that's my day..

hand itchy...

I'm wondering if it's a human nature to be hand itchy.. yesterday my hand damn itchy.. got a mosquito bite.. er.. no.. not that.. haha.. my hand itchy, go listen to that song (a few post back).. end up the song was in my mind the whole day.. bad move.. reach home hand even itchier.. kept repeating that song on my laptop.. worse move.. hand got itchier again.. go clear up the stuff and posted more entries.. worst move.. in the end, my day was so gloomy and saddening...

well.. good things did happen to mi too.. butt happened to read my blog or something.. she came to show concern.. so nice.. and other frens like zw and ks.. they oso care abt mi.. kept mi occupied and stuff.. yeah.. nice frens.. I might be a ship that has lost sight of my lighthouse, but the buoys in the sea have still kept me in course..

Then came along another hand itchy incident.. i went to msg her.. initially juz wanna tell to her abt some other stuff.. not our stuff.. some other stuff.. but end up talking to her abt our stuff.. she seems to be in great pain too.. i'm not the only one.. told each other how to survive our 1st day. come to think of it.. quite silly right? anyway, she told mi she oso hand itchy, go and read my blog.. yeah.. then i went on talking abt some of my feelings.. until she was abt to become emotional alreadi, so we ended the conversation.. somehow, i was feeling better after talking her.. i was abt to sleep well last night.. and i woke up this morning feeling.. dunno it's the talking to her, or my friends around me, or both...

They told mi, to get over it the best way is to distract myself. I'm an easily distracted person. sounds good? Nah.. I tried playing games.. yeah.. it was fun.. i got so engrossed in it. but heng, remember, i'm easily distracted.. meaning, even while playing game, i can be distracted by something else too.. somehow in the midst of gaming, i suddenly thot of this thing, and ya, no more mood to play..

alright.. time for lunch. WOOT~

cleaning up... packing..

my room is veri messy.. bcos i cant be bothered to tidy them up.. although messy, i still can find my things miraculously.. too many things in the room to stir up my emotion easily.. photos, gifts, some tiny decorative stuff, etc... so i decided to do a mini clean-up.. i'll pack and stash the tiny items first.. bcos big item too obvious.. then mum will ask mi why.. didnt want my family to know it yet.. each item carries a precious memory... throwing them into the cupboard is like cutting a piece of my meat lidat.. painful... the anniversary gifts, birthday gifts, vday gifts, gifts that juz give for fun, photos, souvenirs that we got them together during japan trip and hk one.. 8yrs of stuff.. one by one, i put them into the cupboard.. it's not that i'm not going to turn back at this relationship anymore.. it's juz that i couldn't take the pain from looking at them now... of cos, i'm still carrying a slight hope that i may take out these items and place them back in my room... but well.. i'm giving myself a target to meet to.. it's my final year.. i cant let this take over my life.. hopefully i can give myself a new life for my own birthday present...

okay.. now the room looks better.. but still.. i think i need a proper clean-up some time next week.. did a shifting of photos in my hp earlier today alreadi... put them into a folder itself and organise them neatly... next is photos in pc and laptop...

and yeah, ya.. thx butt.. i know u care abt mi too..

loser..

suddenly got a feeling that i'm like a loser.. crying out to the whole world, telling them my story.. my side of story to win the crowd... think i shouldnt post so much abt that issue.. i might mislead the audience.. i'll try to post more neutral stuff if it's on the issue...

boredom..

time passes damn slow today @ work.. i have nothing to do during work.. not say totally nothing to do.. but nothing interesting.. mostly paperwork which i hate a lot.. and documentation work. kns.. to make things worse.. dunno why my bosses today so active.. both kept walking here and there.. coming in and out.. i cant surf net and msn with ease..

so wat's left to do? pondering abt the previous post issue.. damn.. feeling sad, yet cannot express it out.. put on my mask and act normal.. so tried to surf net.. damn.. boss walking behind mi.. it's like a kind of torture now...

a song lyrics was in her nick last night after the incident.. the chorus of this song.. "握你的手 坚持到最后一秒钟 哪怕爱要冰凉了 至少让回忆是暖的"..
Now it's kinda sad to listen to this song.. but still.. let's share this song.. read the lyrics and realise it.. it's meaningful..



光良 握你的手
山顶的风凉的想钻进我内心
沉默是我们最近唯一的话题
看曾经亲密的爱慢慢像友谊
爱是流星 一坠落就不停

#我们尝试让彼此差异能隐形
遗憾的是回避不能解决问题
当我疲倦的凝望你憔悴表情
再不舍得　也该让你远离

*握你的手 坚持到最后一秒钟
哪怕爱要冰凉了 至少让回忆是暖的
了解比爱难多了 我们都尽力了
也许温柔 是停止(再)挽留

(#)(*)

握你的手 像耳语轻声说保重
让眼睛就算湿了 不只是痛也有感动
以前每一次挥手 都为了再握手
但这一次 是为了放手
(重覆)


- 拿的起，放的下。。。

it's over... too late

okay.. it's really too late.. it's all over.. "to be able to tell this, i've cried a litre of tears" well.. not too sure how much i've shed, but yeah.. i'm here to say it's over.. and i gotta pick myself up and walk on.. the world is going to ditch mi behind if i'm going to stay there forever.. hey! i'm a virgo.. i'm a sentimental and emotional man okay.. respect that!

Nevertheless, i'll still be waiting if she would change her mind.. i wont shut her off completely.. i'll juz slowly heal up my wound.. and proceed on.. and maybe get a new life.. Applicants, please send in emails.. =D

renamed "dear" in my hp to "eileen".. there are post which i think i need to edit too..shouldnt call her by that anymore.. in case wat if i have a new gf in juz 2 weeks leh? then "dear" would be refering to who? so it's still better to state properly.. actually something quite funny.. i dun really call her dear in real life.. nor darling.. nor any pet name.. not even her actual name "eileen".. funny? i dunno how i manage to get her attention at times though.. "OEI" "EH" haha...

As u see, i still can joke a bit.. i think i should be alright.. since i'm alreadi kinda prepare for this.. dun worry friends.. i'm a strong man.. if anytime i need u guys, i'll definitely find u.. a few pple happened to be chatting with mi while this showdown was going on.. thx serene.. sorry for eating into ur sleep time.. and er.. half-thx zw.. think u KO-ed after a few lines...

-appended-
okay.. sorry zw.. u never KO-ed.. juz that u happened to have something to settle too.. sorry!
-end-

wont be talking too much into the details of the problem.. at least not that soon.. need to cooldown first.. get things right.. or else anything i type might trigger the tear glands again..

- i'll learn from my past and move towards a better future...

If only...

looking through zw's blog.. saw his comment abt siao's (sihao) question.

"If i can travel through time and go back to the past, what will i do?"

some time back, i only have 1 thing that i regret quite badly that i wish to correct it.. i wont say it.. =X onli 1-2 pple know bah.. hmmm.. anyway.. now another item has been added into the list.. if only..

juz the thought of it is enough to cause tear to appear in my eyes.. regrets.. is it too late to redeem myself?

if only i would go shopping with her when she asked mi to accompany her... i was finding excuses to avoid..
if only i would chat with her when she needed someone to talk to... i was dota-ing instead...
if only i would listen to her and slim down... i totally ignored that comment...
if only i would drive and send her home when she requested... i find driving scary (yes, i'm scared to drive) and finding excuses again...
if only i would fetch her from her house when i asked her to come over... i was too lazy to wake up earlier than normal..

there's juz too many "if only" to be listed and i wish i could change them all.. am i too late for it? would i be given another chance to do so? they may sound lame, but they are some actual things that i wish i could do them now...

These words may not seem sad enough, but it actually hurts me a lot when i'm writing it.. regrets...

IA result out...

chuied.. my IA result B+ nia... think my report sux big time.. so bo pian.. i choose to believe my bosses are good to me!!! but still.. chuied.. hahaha.. cannot ask too much for a report that was done in 2-3 days right?

what? convo again?

eileen's convo episode 2!! er.. why got episode 2? well.. she went thru the commencement ceremony twice.. first time is USP, second time is her faculty.. and yesterday i crashed the 2nd one for the ending only though.. wanted to give her a surprise.. u see, i have never attended a convo before so i dunno anything, any SOP to it.. but i reached that on Friday (the 1st convo), i saw a lot of pple carrying flowers ah, bears ah.. hmmm... okay.. so that's how it's supposed to be.. now i know.. having a 2nd chance (2nd commencement), i decided to get her a bear and some flowers lor.. was taking the picture of the bear and flower so i can put on blog, then she told mi to hurry up. bcos she looked dumb bcos i was taking onli the bear and flower but not her... haha. okay.. i'm lame.. and ya.. handphone camera sux.. at least for mine.. kns..

she was going to esplanade to take more photos with her frens.. yeah.. so i left.. and i took the bear and flower home with me.. she told mi to take them back first bcos too bulky.. =~( okay lah.. bcos they are really bulky lah.. consider that she has to take the robe along too..

Watched transformed later in the evening with zw, laiyi and ernest @ grand cathay.. WOOT~ superb! nice CG, theatre good sound system too.. veri shiok! but... i wasn't too much in the mood though... was thinking abt some other issues...

earlier on, met up with dear to pass her the bear and flower.. then went over to her house to nuah.. she's too tired to accompany mi.. so let her napped in 1 corner while i watched "The Core" on ch5.. recently she's too busy with her convo and some other stuff.. didn't really have chance to really spend time together with mi.. sadded.. well.. i can't ask for more, so i'll juz be contended as it is now..

the link below is a flash game.. hahaha.. quite funny.. was laughing our asses off while playing it juz now..

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/scarygame

Enjoy! (i'm trying to reduce my post length.. not veri nice to have lengthy post all the way..)

eileen's convo

today is eileen's convo. So specially applied whole day leave today juz for her.. *-deleted 100707-* days before today, i was looking forward for today, not just bcos it's her convo, it's my day off from work!!! i can wake up late! WOOT! at least that's wat i thot. damnit.. last night she has juz informed mi 9am has to reach there.. kns.. chuied! my dream of waking up late.. no diff from going to work.. great~

we didn't have an extra invitation card for mi.. onli 2 for her parents. well.. so i was prepared to juz sit outside and wait for her commencement to be over. my main task for the day is to be her private photographer (i onli took 1 photo with her. but never mind, she bought the whole set, so we can take anytime, if we still have the chance.) we were early, so she went chit chat with some frens first.. while chit chatting, one of her friends said that he has an extra invitation card as his dad last minute bo eng.. WOOT~ lucky! so i'm going in too! before entering, i took a quick snap of her.




cute? i think she's cute.. wahahahahahahahaaa.. went thru the whole ceremony.. took more photos after the ceremony (me as the photographer >.< ) will post more of her if i manage to get them on hand.. As i've promised last time.. i'll post aoi sora's youtube!!! but clean one lah.. juz to create awareness for pple who dunno her... Queen of J-Porn.. SHE ROX! (ambiguous statement sia)
well.. i'm impressed by her.. guess those "workouts" she had make her physically fit bah.. WOOT~

perseverance...

i've learnt perseverance is veri important... it aint that expensive - ring of health 875 + void stone 900 = perseverance 1775! hahaha.. okay, no.. just exactly how much does perseverance cost? just ur willpower.. maybe some setbacks and time wasted here and there.. but hey! the return might be very rewarding. you'll never know.. Life is like a pack of M&Ms, you'll never know what colour you will get. (I like brown one personally.)

Why persevere on you may ask.. oaky, this is how i feel.. "give up" has onli 1 path, the end of *whatever thing it may be*. but "perseverance" has many paths that you might not even know that they exist.. although it might still bring u back to the same path as giving up, i'll rather go for that possibility that the path might be a different one.. (Com'on, it's juz 1775 gold..)

Currently, i dunno if i'm just prolonging the death sentence or i'm actually making good progress.. i'll just do wat i believe in - PERSEVERE! Despite the attempts may seem to be futile, but i'll just try my best.. Ganbatte!

i dunno use powerful english to express my thots and emotions, but each word carries my feeling... (minus away DotA portion. those are just effects.)


Another song of Mayday to intro - 倔強



五月天 倔強 LYRICS

詞:阿信 曲:阿信

當　我和世界不一樣　那就讓我不一樣
堅持對我來說　就是以剛克剛
我 如果對自己妥協 如果對自己說謊
即使別人原諒　我也不能原諒
最美的願望　一定最瘋狂
我就是我自己的神　在我活的地方

我和我最後的倔強　握緊雙手絕對不放
下一站是不是天堂　就算失望不能絕望
我和我驕傲的倔強　我在風中大聲的唱
這一次為自己瘋狂　就這一次　我和我的倔強

對　愛我的人別緊張　我的固執很善良
我的手越骯髒　眼神越是發光
你　不在乎我的過往　看到了我的翅膀
你說過被火燒過才能出現鳳凰
逆風的方向　更適合飛翔
我不怕千萬人阻擋　只怕自己投降

我和我最後的倔強　握緊雙手絕對不放
下一站是不是天堂　就算失望不能絕望
我和我驕傲的倔強　我在風中大聲的唱
這一次為自己瘋狂　就這一次　我和我的倔強

我和我最後的倔強　握緊雙手絕對不放
下一站是不是天堂　就算失望不能絕望
我和我驕傲的倔強　我在風中大聲的唱
這一次為自己瘋狂　就這一次　我和我的倔強

就這一次　讓我大聲唱
ｌａｌａｌａ．．就算失望　不能絕望
ｌａｌａｌａ．．就這一次　我和我的倔強

songs... my first youtube post!

totally unproductive at work today.. too much things in my mind.. listening to music while surfing and msning.. heard a few nice Mayday songs, so decided to intro u to all. Not that i'm a fan of mayday, it's just that i really like their songs.. all of them have meaning.. yeah..

First song is 一千个世纪. I like the song lyrics..



Second song is 而我知道.. well.. hahaha.. I like MV.. watch it and u'll know..



Enjoy!


五月天 一千个世纪

曲:石头 词:阿信制作

当时地球还年轻 我们诞生荒凉大海里
演化到了寒武纪 我们长出脊椎和勇气

某天我们开始踩出脚印 学会双手拥抱学会爱情
长出人类的心

啊啊 我要和你一起走过一千个世纪
每次诞生 我都要与你相遇
每次轮回 都为你

当时你我都野性 我们学会用火和穴居
後来帝国正崛起 我们战乱之中更相依

某天我们突然回忆过去 我们只是两段平凡基因
却爱的很美丽

啊啊 我要和你一起走过一千个世纪
每次诞生 我都要与你相遇(下一个我也许是人或蚂蚁)
每次轮回 都是为你

啊啊 我要和你一起活过一千个世纪
每次诞生 都只有一个意义
就是和你在一起

直到文明又毁灭 一千世纪後的第一天
伊甸园里肩并肩 我们笑看太阳也熄灭


五月天 而我知道

作詞：阿信　作曲：阿信　編曲：五月天

冰塊　還沒融化　你在看錶　我　笑的尷尬
你說　最近很忙　改天聊吧

那天　我在樓下　想了很久　想　你說的話
你說　愛情很窄　世界很大(而我們應該長大)

就這樣吧　就這樣吧
我想我　聽懂你　話中的話

而我知道那真愛不一定能白頭到老
而我知道有一天你可能就這麼走掉
而我知道我知道這一切我全都知道
我就是受不了

而我知道我們曾天真的一起哭和笑
而我知道放開手但不知道怎麼忘掉
而我知道你走了以後的每一分每一秒
卻還是這麼難敖

微笑　緊緊咬牙　給你祝福　你　自由飛吧
你說　溫室沒有燦爛的花(你總是很有想法)

就這樣吧　就這樣吧
我同意　可是我　淚如雨下

a friendly cab passenger...

something has been bothering for a veri long time.. do i look friendly? do i look approachable? somehow, everytime i take cab (and i take them veri often) alone hor, uncles they all often talk to me one.. some can talk abt politics, some can talk abt society issues, some can talk cock, some can tell mi abt their family background..

just today, was at a taxi stand behind 2 female youngsters. the cab came liao, then they like dunno want to board or not one. so i asked them, "sorry, are you taking it?" both ignored mi lidat can carry on with their discussion!! irritated, so i ignored them and took the cab lor.. then the uncle asked the girls ignored mi ah.. he went on talking abt how stuck up singaporean girls are. hahaha.. he said he divorced before.. bcos his wife stuck up.. then say he got remarried, and wife is actually his cousin. took veri good care of him. had daughter, 21 yrs old. young time veri naughty, now is actually taking further education on scholarships. he even showed mi the neoprints on the back of his phone, and the photos in his wallet.

1 thing that will make mi remember this uncle deep in my mind, he was talking to mi and looking thru the rear mirror making eye contact with mi. while he's talking abt his daughter, i can see his eyes were actually welled up with tears. those watery looking eyes. he does really love his daughter a lot... Awwwwwww.. but that's not the main point i'm trying to say in this post. LOOK! in juz a short 20-30min ride, i know his family backgrd liao!

was talking with jiehe in the morning, and somehow we talked abt should we reveal to our fren if we spot his/her other half in the street with another guy holding hands or stuff. to me, i would like to know of cos. but on the other hand, i dun wish to know.. bcos of my ego.. upon hearing the truth from the mouth of frens, it will be really damaging to ego.. and my ego for this is extremely huge... so friends! if one fine day such things happen to mi, pls dun tell me. give mi my ego. i'll find it out sooner or later. i should be smart enough to detect such stuff too, i guess...

blogging...

some pple blog because they feel like speaking their hearts out. some pple blog because other pple are doing it so they feel they should so. some pple blog because they have nothing better to do. some pple blog because they wanna have a diary and want everyone to see it. I think i belong to the last 2 grps. I have nothing better to do, and i want pple to see my boring life.. hahaha.. in a way, maybe pple will start asking mi to go out if they see that i'm having such a boring life? woot~

the night before yesterday, my router piaked. sadded. dlink has lifetime warranty, but it's closed on weekend. and my sis is nagging mi all day long. buay tahan. since gst offset is in, so why not spend it, and before the gst increase! hahaha.. so went down to sim lim in the late morning. took bus to bugis, then walk from bugis to sls. when walking through the bugis village, wow.. saw a gigantic fan. and it's cooling standing below it!

sorry. picture a bit dark. used hp camera take one. and this comp not equipped with photoshop. try to strain ur eyes a bit and make the picture outta of it lah ah.. look at the span of each blade.

went to ktv with swiss gang after that.. omg. i do really feel my singing sux.. then next time i go sing alone liao. train until sibei zhai first.. or else ah, kan lao kui leh. after ktv everyone dispersed. zhenwei's going to fetch ernest, so i tagged along lor.. receiving/send friends is always a fun thing. in fact i dun mind going for all of them, if i live in the east side.. haha.. but i dun live in the east..

on the way to airport along aye, spotted another cool thing. think after started blogging, i enjoy using hp camera to take photo and post it here. XD

look at the cloud behind, doesnt it look like a bird with 2 wings. okay, the bird has a long neck. but the cloud on the left and right does really look like a pair of wings. veri nice. with the sunset colour too.

After fetching ernest, we went to makan. we gave ernest the privillege of choosing wat and where to eat as he has been outta town for so long. (although zw oso, he had alreadi been back in sg for 1-2wk liao. so not counted anymore.) Went down to changi village eat nasi lemak. While we were talking, er.. dunno exactly how we talk lah, end up talking abt sex before marriage. (okay, actually i do know how we talk until there, but i wont tell you! WAHAHHAHA!!)

personally, sex before marriage i'm okay with it. not becos i'm those who alreadi done it or wat, in fact, eileen is strictly against it. that's why i'm still er... *stop*.. but my belief is that it's okay, if u do really think that person is gonna be the one. i believe in "make love", not "having sex".. so like together for less than a few month then piak piak liao. wah.. i'm against it. maybe bcos my thinking is kinda conservative too.. not that conservative, but still a bit.. yeah.. oooooo~~ touchy topic. shant talk too much on it. readers might not like it.


i was copying out the photos from my camera and came across this photo. it's an origami that i did. look cute right? the words on it, eh, i wrote it that time when i did it, and mms over to eileen. hmm.. those words speak my heart now... anyway, anyone interested in trying this origami can msg mi, i got the link showing how to do it. not only this dog design, there's a lot more design. this is juz 1 of those that i've tried. all look cool. no joke. I'M A FAN OF ORIGAMI!