If only...

looking through zw's blog.. saw his comment abt siao's (sihao) question.

"If i can travel through time and go back to the past, what will i do?"

some time back, i only have 1 thing that i regret quite badly that i wish to correct it.. i wont say it.. =X onli 1-2 pple know bah.. hmmm.. anyway.. now another item has been added into the list.. if only..

juz the thought of it is enough to cause tear to appear in my eyes.. regrets.. is it too late to redeem myself?

if only i would go shopping with her when she asked mi to accompany her... i was finding excuses to avoid..
if only i would chat with her when she needed someone to talk to... i was dota-ing instead...
if only i would listen to her and slim down... i totally ignored that comment...
if only i would drive and send her home when she requested... i find driving scary (yes, i'm scared to drive) and finding excuses again...
if only i would fetch her from her house when i asked her to come over... i was too lazy to wake up earlier than normal..

there's juz too many "if only" to be listed and i wish i could change them all.. am i too late for it? would i be given another chance to do so? they may sound lame, but they are some actual things that i wish i could do them now...

These words may not seem sad enough, but it actually hurts me a lot when i'm writing it.. regrets...