Positive Thinking

I found out I'm pretty good with positive thinking, well, sometimes.

1. Think about the good moments instead of mulling over on the bad ones.

2. When the bad happens, be glad at least it didn't get worse.

3. If you are at the rock bottom, it just couldn't get any worse than that.

The principle is all about thinking towards the positive. Shift your neutral gauge when things get bad, so that if anything better than that is DEFINITELY BETTER!

Nah.. it's just me and my optimistic and positive thinking. Needa tell myself everytime that things aren't that bad after all.

=)

Messy Life

I used to reflect on my life every once in a while during the quiet "me" time. But recently my life has become quite busy (with work) that I couldn't really think much of anything else except work.

Then just now during my long bus ride journey home, I started to reflect on my own life so far... Man... It's in a mess. There's so much I need to work on, and I haven't been much of a Mr Nice Guy recently. Instead, Dr Evil has appeared quite frequently.

There's still so much in life I haven't accomplished. *Shucks* And I have no idea how and when I can accomplish them.

Halfway through my reflection, I gave up... It's just simply too messy to sort out now. =\

I'm not going to resume thinking... Gonna take a break first.. rrrrreeeeelaaaaxxxxxxxxxx

Lost Time

My ICT ended last Friday. Honestly speaking, I actually missed ICT more than I missed office. In office, I need to use so much of my brain, thinking of solving problems, siaming and shooting arrowing, etc etc. During ICT, life is simple (though physically straining), I hardly even used my brain! I almost forgot I got 1...

But something bad about ICT, esp high key ones, 2 weeks spent in camp. Even though mine is a stay out unit, I get to go home almost everyday, I actually just spend most of the time lazing around and sleep. And yes, world cup too. My world wasn't really connected to others during this 2 weeks. It was as if my time has paused, my life isn't moving. BUT the outside world was still moving on!

After the ICT, I realized I'm missing out on a lot of updates of friends, lots of movies/shows not watched, tons of work awaiting for me back in office, and many more. The world seems so much different just after 2 weeks + 2 days.

My lost time.. I'm still trying to recover the lost time by hasten my pace.

First 2 days of work, I worked extra hard.

Chit chat with many friends, checking for updates.

Watched 3 movies within 2 days - "Despicable Me", "Toy Story 3" and "Inception"

Conducting Gmarket spree for July.

Still no time for my games yet... =\

Bonus is Bonus (N.A to work)

Being emo isn't necessarily a bad thing. The thing is, when I'm emo, I'll think a lot. Hell lot. Yeah.. Then usually I'll gain some light outta it. This is what I've been enlightened recently.

Sometimes I'll start to wonder, "Why am I not the lucky one?". From stuff like going after girls to simple bo liao stuff like 4D and Toto. Then I realised something. Lucky one is just a few selected people. Instead, I should just be glad that I'm not the unlucky group of people.

When you spend some time looking around you, you'll find that there are people who might be encountering worse stuff than you. You ought to be happy that you are not in their situation or whatever. Being not unlucky is considered lucky enough. And anything good extra on top of your current life, it's bonus.

So yeap.. I'm trying to think positively now. After all, my life doesn't seem that bad after all. *pat on my shoulder*.

P/S: Bonus in life is 可遇不可求. But bonus in work IS EXPECTED! *play <说好的幸福>*

Meaning of Life...

I may be slacking my life away recently, but hey! I'm doing serious thinking on my life from this moment onwards too okay! It's only when one has this much free time can ponder upon this mystery of life. What is the meaning of my life.......

All along I was quite happy that I set my career path long time ago, during secondary school. I wanted to be in the IT line. From there, I went into double Maths + Physics + Computing course during JC, and eventually, Comp Engineering during university. Now I reached this point that I wanted to reach. Where do I go from here on? I'm lost...

Working is a definite. But, what's the meaning behind working so hard? Earn big bucks, own big car and big house? Do I really need all these? Even if I want those luxury of life, are those my ultimate aim of life? I believe my vision for life gotta be something better than that. I know I'm not a superficial person, easily satisfied with these kind of stuff. Let me slowly find that ultimate aim of life.

I always have this thought, "what if I'm dead now". I had this kind of dream before a few times. During that dreams, regrets that I have until now started to surfacing to my mind. Ahhhhh... those regrets, they can never be resolved. I start to think beyond that, who will remember me after my death. Have I left any impact in anyone's life? Definitely I didn't, and most probably won't be able to, manage to leave my name in the history (unless i go take a knife and start slashing people on the street).

So, if I just fall dead tomorrow, isn't my life a useless one???? I haven't accomplished anything, leaving no impact on anyone's life, leaving no trace of my existence, so what is the meaning of my life up to now?!???!?? If there is an almighty up there, surely my life ought to have a meaning right? Or that mean so long that goal of my living has not reached, I won't be leaving this world that soon? Hahahaa! I don't know, but that's what I was hoping to believe in, maybe. Awwwwwwww... The meaning of lfe is too sophiscated. I definitely don't wish to leave this world without etching my existence in this world, or at least in somebody.

If I were to leave this world tomorrow, would you friends kindly remember me for life? At least until I managed to leave my name in the book of history. LOL!


P/S: No! I'm not committing suicide or doing mass slaughtering. Just finding the meaning of my life only. Lax.....

Lucky you, Unlucky me..

This is a post that I wanted to write on long long long long long long long long long ago. In fact, my original plan was to write a proper essay on it. But then again, I failed my GP, and no point making my readers suffer. And myself.

I bet you heard this, or you yourself said this, many times before - "Why is the world so unfair?", or something similar. How often do those people think thoroughly before making that statement (Oops! That include myself too!)? Why do I said so?

Everyone has their own point of view, their own perspective. The judgment done by people often differs between one another. These differences in judgment are due to many factors such as background, wealth, biasness, etc. What is good and what is bad, are just what one PERCEIVES. One man's meat, another man's poison.

Someone with big house and big car is often linked to being a lucky guy, while a poor one is an unlucky person. Of course, on the superficial level, that is a definite. But look deeper in, if you may. You might find that the poorer one may have other areas that he is "luckier" than the richer one.

Last time when I believed that the world is unfair by nature, my favourite phrase for that is, "If the world is fair, The fingers on my hand will all be of equal length." Now I've changed that old thinking of mine. The fingers of the hand are given different length and characteristics because each of them has their own role and duty. Each of them has their own pros and cons. Now that's fair.

What I want to say is (in case my organization of thought or my writing above is really that terrible), how good or how bad your life is depending on how you perceive it yourself. If you determine that it's bad, oh well, it's definitely bad and I feel sorry for you. But if you can see the beautiful part of your life and determine your life is a good, you will enjoy your life more and I congratulate you on that.

If you really find yourself often say "Why is god/world so unfair?", try this. Take a step back. Look at your life carefully. Are you missing anything good that has happened and you ought to notice? It might be just the way how you perceive good and bad. If you are comparing with another person, then think deeper about it. He/She might have what you don't have, but you sure have things he/she doesn't have too. But then again! If you are just cursing and swearing due to impulse, go ahead. It's a nice way to put blame on... TEMPORARILY.

Well... My aim in this post is just that I hope to see my friends able to live their life better and more enjoyable, rather than to live and complain about it. Perception... Yeah, the pasture is always greener on the other side. .......... GET A LIFE!

sunset...

a view from my #11-20 unit.. #11-19 cannot see that well.. the sunset wedged between 2 blocks, 1 near, another further down..

you ought to see it for urself.. it's a nice view.. and my kitchen is bathed in golden rays... hai... this view won't last for long.. 3-4 yrs time, i will be moving further in liao.. dunno which direction i will be facing and high will i be... why did i only learn to appreciate this view only now?

Human's nature... You'll never treasure it until you lose it...

driving...

just came back from supper.. i think i'm starting to like driving.. but my driving confidence level still not there yet... must drive more drive more... woot~

lazy...

i actually quite a few stuff to say.. photos to upload.. but i'm lazy.. hahaha.. i'll juz say a quick one..

i think most people have this problem.. but i think mine is on quite an extreme end..

when i couldn't really spare much time to sleep due to deadlines or whatever, i would sleep and quite a lot.. of cos not at the critical moment like 1-2 days before the deadline or wat lah.. but the days before the critical moment, i would juz sleep and sleep and sleep.. though i know i shouldn't be sleeping that much.. and i'm sleeping more than enough..

then when during sch hols, no deadline, or after deadlines, i would have plenty of time to sleep right? BUT! i dun wanna to sleep! =\ to an extent that i would kinda force myself awake.. push myself to the max.. and ya, i've been sleeping in front of my laptop ever since my exam was over... why? watch show or surf net until sleep.. even more.. my eyes are freaking tired.. sore lidat.. eye bags damn swollen.. and yet, i dun wanna sleep.. haahahaa.. i juz realised my eye bags are damn swollen when i looked at the photos that zm took on saturday.. cham..

well.. guess i'll go to bed soon.. bcos i can hardly open my eyes already.. i was preparing the mixture for the cookies juz now.. yeah.. i'm baking cookies.. now i've leaving the mixture in the fridge.. instruction say leave it at least 1hr, best overnight.. i'm choosing the latter.. but i can't find my that grease paper.. dunno why my mum placed it.. =/ =\ and the microwave is dirty.. i lazy to go and clean it up now.. =D tml tml..

if i never offer anyone my cookies, it means it's a failure.. i didn't beat the eggs well juz now.. not sure how it will end up like.. hahahaha.. good luck to myself..

inspirational words of wisdom...

kapo from this site which i stumbled upon.. http://www.wow4u.com/ilearn/index.html

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be some that can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned hat you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do.

I've learned that you can do some thing in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done regardless of the consequences.

I've learned that money is a lousy way to keep score.

I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned that the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to pick you back up.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I've learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I've learned that no matter good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

ending of my "home alone" misery...

tonight my parents will finally be back... although i can live alone, hey, if there's someone else who can help mi to ease my daily well-being.. hahaha.. why not.. okay okay.. i'm treating my mum as maid lidat sia...

it's like once a year, i'll have to go thru this.. at least that's wat happened for the past 2-3 years or so.. wash my own clothes, settle my own meal, tidy up my own stuff.. i do sound like some kind of spoilt brat ah? i must admit i am.. also, beside my own chores, i need to do my parents' stuff too wor.. i need to feed the fish ah, water the plant ah, send 4d results over to their hp ah, help buy 4d ah.. hmmm.. okay.. over-exaggerating.. those arent that tedious, except feeding the fish..

well, i think the worst is still taking care of my own meals.. u see.. i'm still getting allowance from parents (spoilt brat, 败家子) .. i dun earn my own cash.. and my allowance.. not veri high.. but then again, pretty average? 50bucks a week.. well, better than those who have to earn their allowance, so i wouldn't complain.. if really not enough, then i'll use my saving lor.. dun ever try to preach mi to find some tuition to earn extra money.. i hate that.. okay, anyway, ya.. so i'm trying to minimise my spending on normal meals.. if can skip meal, i'll skip.. if hungry, make sushi and eat lor.. since i HAVE so much sushi ingredient leftover, though of the same kind.. *puke* no more california maki for mi..

just a moment ago, i had to find some food for dinner.. since lunch i alreadi bought food from outside, so dinner gotta be home cooked.. hmmm.. lazy to start stove and stuff.. well.. i decided to make onigiri!!!

tada! my onigiri! left side is bonito flakes, right side is mayo tuna filling wrapped with seaweed.. okay.. the seaweed wrapped until veri ugly. i have no skill for that yet.. hahhaha.. but at least the shape is there for the bonito flakes one wor..

okay.. enough of my meals.. sick.. in any case.. my mum has just called mi (before i typed "in any case").. they have touched down.. and she asked if i want anything to eat.. *touched* =~~) they are back!!!!!

blogging...

initially i got a bit on the hot side when i read zm blog. wanted to rebut it. i even wrote a post on it liao. then after thinking and talking to another friend of mine. well, it does sound lame after all. instead, think i should reconsider over everything about blog.

wat was my reason for blogging? wat's everyone else's reason for blogging? hmmmm.. i started off blogging bcos there are stuff in my heart that i have not one to speak to. i wanted a diary. but why i put it online? bcos i wannabe AA? maybe bcos i juz want to be understand during that time.

then after the storm was over, my blog had lost its initial motive of existence. that was the time i was thinking to stop blogging or not. hey, why not make it my virtual memory. to record down my happenings, thoughts, feelings and nonsensical writing. there, my blog was reborn~

little did i realise that i'm slowly losing my aim. i was blogging for myself, not the others. why am i expecting others to know my stuff through my blog, and not through other channels of communication? hmmm.. i apologise that i've said stuff like "why never read my blog". really sorry abt it. i know it's irritating to be left out in the conversation and no one's filling you in with the details. however, there are just times when the communication channel is just meant to be one-way. so for those, don't blame me if i didnt wanna talk about it via the other means.

one thing to note though. don't fret over things you don't know when others know. it's just that they happen to/frequently update on others' blogs. nevertheless, just ask, and most probably you will be answered. perhaps with a line of "why never read my blog". hey, i'll trying to curb it down now! it's not that you are left out bcos u never read. that "news" might be never even meant to be announced, just that someone else chanced upon it and made it known to the rest of the world while you aren't around. and that's why you are outta the loop.

ask and you'll be answered~

the misunderstanding, i think...

hmm.. maybe i should try to explain the misunderstanding/quarrel that i had a few days ago.. in actual fact, i think i've alreadi figured out where went wrong and what each of us was angry at. but all along, i was just being stubborn and refuse to give way.

the arguement began with me accusing that that friend of mine said he was busy for that day. my accusation was based on my vague and weak memory, or perhaps my mind just made up that false memory. but yet for some reason, i strongly insisted on it. and i even fabricated a phoney msn history to "support" my say. crap. screw me for trying to be funny. that ignited his wick.

then he started to throw sarcastic remarks and, erm.. some personal insults. well, i take them personally though. maybe he doesn't think so. hmmm.. yup. that snapped it. i was alreadi in a bad mood / moody state before this. for those who doesnt know me that well, eh.. i can joke and talk like normal even when my mood is bad. of course, there will be tell-tale signs, but normal people wont be able to detect them. ya, so i was very fed up and angry. can't be bothered with talking to him anymore, i left the mass chat. here here, i've shortened his wick by half this time.

after some time, i was pulled back into the chat. actually, this was a chance for me to settle everything and resolve them. but my anger had got the better of me. so once again, i left the mass chat. yup. he exploded as well then.

do u see the picture here? the initial problem was so trivial, but snowballed into something big (and childish, imo). some more, both of us were angry at different stuff. he was angry that his integrity was been challenged, and i was angry that i was insulted as being a shallow person. although there were many chances for me, i took none of them to settle this problem maturely. reason? pride. pui! lame shit, isnt it?

so what has this many years of friendship amounted to? what meaning does it hold? all of them couldn't even beat a useless pride of mine? man, i was so childish. then until i saw his apology. that's it. i've realised i'm so useless. cowardice i would call myself. what pride, my ass. i can't even try to make up what i have done wrong. i can't believe i've let this problem dragged on and run from it for so long. hmm.. i've seen more fault of mine than his as i go on pondering abt this incident.

ya, so i would like to apologise to him here. I'm sorry. even with this scar inflicted in our friendship, i hope that won't hinder us from getting together better. i may sound fake, insincere, or overly casual for this incident. i ain't good with words, but i do really mean all the words here.

Sorry. orz

p/s erm.. okay.. maybe i'm still proud, stubborn or for watever reason.. but i would prefer to keep the details of this matter down to the minimal... so up to now, u reader dont even see that friend's name.. and ya, he apologised to me on the tagbox. but i deleted it not bcos i dun wan pple to know that he apologised to mi alreadi. or rather, like i've said, i would like to keep his name anonymous too.

personality test...

kooped this from darren's blog.. eh.. artist?!?!? wtf... it's not accurate!!!

You Are An ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy beauty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. In love, you are quiet and sweet yet very passionate. You love easily. You have an underlying love for all living things, and it's easy for you to accept someone into your heart. At work, you do best in an unconventional position. You express yourself well and can work with almost anyone. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer. How you see yourself: Sympathetic, kind, and communicative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, insecure, and overly sensitive

What's Your Personality Type?

then i went to redo the test again.. this time thinking thru those qn properly and answer again.. how?

You Are An ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. In love, you are a smooth talker and incorrigible flirt. While you get into relationships easily, you don't tend to stick around when times get tough. At work, you do well in groups. You keep everyone laughing through difficult tasks. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor. How you see yourself: Capable, fair, and efficient When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, stubborn, and silly

What's Your Personality Type?

how's this explanation.. eh.. i got split personality.. 1 might be wat i really is, and another is wat i let myself be when i'm with frens... hmmm..

been scolded childish...

hai... how? i actually got scolded (not scolded lah.. kinda tio say nia lah) by a cab uncle yesterday.. yesterday i woke up late and supposed to meet uni frens for lab project meeting.. then didnt want to act so attittude, so i had to take cab down to meet them lor.. but hor.. i think the time i took to do my hair is equal to the time taken for the cab to reach sch... hahahahaha.. shhhhh!

then as usual lah.. i got a "talk to me" look, so cab uncles enjoy talking to me.. and oso as usual, most uncles will ask wat u doing now, study which course, wat year, etc.. then this uncle went on and say got interested in doing wat job and got career talk in sch or not.. i told him those companies i'm not interested.. so up to now i dunno yet.. then..... he said... I'M CHILDISH!!

sadded.. the word "childish" whacked mi hard.. all along i believe i can work well in a field i'm interested in.. if i have no interest, most probably i wont enjoy.. that uncle went on explaining the reason behind.. he said interest is onli for kids.. bcos they dun have any other aims beside interest.. but adult like me, i gotta think beyond that...he said i juz need to find a high pay job and work for experience.. with experience u can move on to other field...

no doubt, wat he said wasn't wrong lah.. yes, u can take on any related job juz for experience first... with that experience u can move on... but.. if u give mi a 2.3k job doing things i like, and a job 3k doing things i dun really like.. i think i might still choose the 2.3k.. hmmm.. but of cos, if any lower pay, the story will be different liao lah.. childish ah? i must admit.. wat if i wanna start a family of my own? or my family meet some financial crisis? that 0.7k will make a lot of difference.. now i dunno should i juz go for experience/money or my interest.. this really shakes my principle of life - "Enjoy life"...

how how how? i think this thinking of mine will turn off girls.. =/

my poor right arm..

juz finished playing badminton with uni frens.. jh kan fit! piak piak piak all the way, still got strength to piak even more.. my right arm alreadi giving way liao.. fit.. *salute* i'm really buay gan... sian.. now i even have problem operating my mouse.. wonder how long will it take mi to regain my stamina of the older days.. sucks.. i'm really slacking too much physically... but after exercising, i do really feel good lah.. thanks to endorphin!! *yawnz* really find lessons after exercising is hard to keep myself awake.. think tonight got problem doing my every night routine liao.. DotA... =~(

my stupid weighing machine no more batt, i think.. kns.. juz bought it on friday and yesterday morning when i wanna take my weight, nothing came onto the LED.. kns kns kns kns kns... so much for carrefour products.. kns kns kns kns kns kns kns..

i really think having a better figure is a necessity to have better first impression on ladies.. had a normal chat with jh.. he made a comment saying cannot find friends ard mi.. bcos alreadi friends for so long le, weird to develop into r/s.. true enough.. if got chance to develop, would alreadi have been together liao right? hahahaha.. therefore.. conclusion.. i need to know more gals.. Dear friends! Intro mi female friends, okay? thanks in advance!!

jh has lots of theories.. dunno where he formed or heard them one.. dunno the reliability oso.. hmmm... comments, anyone?

singaporeans...

today i got 2 posts to write.. first post will be a flaming one.. talking abt a certain portion of singaporeans + foreigners...

i believe those daily mrt commuters will experience this often.. i've been wondering why cant pple juz get this into their brain.. "let pple out first, then u go in". of cos, this doesnt juz apply to mrt, elevator too.. mrt cabin/elevator has limited capacity.. so, if u dun let pple come out, how u go in!??!? damn irritated.. then today, there's this lady standing behind mi and zm.. being courteous pple, we always let pple come out first then go in.. apparently the lady behind kept tsk-ing and mumbling abt we being slow.. -.-" then when inside pple came out liao, we started to make our way in.. that lady simply juz barged and rammed past us to go in.. as in the door was going to close up on her lidat.. kns.. then she's still tsk-ing and mumbling.. after some stops, she managed to find a seat and sit down.. then she immediately went into la la land...

after a while, i realised that she's really inconsiderate.. the cabin is alreadi crowded liao, yet she's still sleeping in her own comfort, stretch out her legs far far blocking passageway.. i saw liao, sibei buay song.. then an idea came to my mind.. we'll kick her leg before we go out.. yeah! zm damn on abt it.. we even thot of first person go and kick off her footwear, and the next person kicks it further away.. when we reached our stop, zm went off first.. *kick!* WOOT~ then the lady immediately got awoken and resume her tsk-ing and mumbling again.. too bad zm didnt manage to kick off the footwear and the lady retract back her legs alreadi.. so no kicking for mi to do.. hahaha.. SCREW YOU!!! F#@# YOU!!

regarding abt letting pple out first before going in.. this is wat i usually do.. if i'm outside, i'll stand firmly.. and if anyone really to shove his way in behind mi, i'll juz remain firmly at spot and block his way.. i'm quite irritated abt this kind of thing.. then if i'm inside, i'll turn sideway so my shoulder is facing the door.. then i'll shoulder ram anyone who r in my path.. i'm not so unreasonable that i'll ram anyone from the side of the doors.. i'll stand in the middle of the door.. by right pple should stay way off it wat.. so if still got pple standing there.. too bad for you!! F@#$ YOU TOO!!!!


next issue.. singaporeans dunno how to say "excuse me".. i was at a supermarket.. apparently i was standing at a bad position watching a female promoter for some drink products... there was a guy behind mi who's trying to walk across.. i didn't hear him say anything.. but this is wat zm told mi lah.. "hello? hello? hello?" zzzzz.. is he right in his mind? even a normal person hear liao, oso wont reaction to him leh!!! tell me, wat do u do when u answer a call? "hello" or "hello hello" when u cant hear properly.. couldnt he juz say "hello/sorry, excuse me, please"? pissed off by this too.. definitely not my first time experiencing this though.. i dun even mind if u say a singlish style "cuse me" or wat, but "hello" surely isn't right.. "hello? hello? wake up ur idea can?"


lastly, this happened when we are having supper at gombak there.. saw a grp of lao bengs and lians.. got this guy.. hey! he's pretty considerate okay (as pointed out by zm)!!! though he's smoking at non-yellow box area, he's considerate enough not to blow the smoke into the center of the table and cause his fellow mates to breathe in those smoke.. but well.. WE WEREN'T THE SAME TABLE AS HIM!!! THE REST OF US SUFFERED FROM IT!! F!@#ING HELL!!! smoke in yellow box oso cannot follow.. causing inconvenience to pple ard him.. WTF!


all these are some normal daily sighting that u can see everyday.. but all these are actually irritating mi and giving mi a bad impression of singaporeans (even though i'm singaporean too).. but they simply make mi goes WTF without fail everytime.. F!@#ING PISSED OFF EVERYTIME!! that's why i like japan.. XD

Boring life! Straight ahead! Fire!

it's onli 12pm+ and i can see a boring weekend ahead.. SAVE ME!! friends! anyone seeing this post now, quick ask mi out!! yes, you zeming, you oso can.. but no JB pls..

something i noticed while looking through friends' blog.. similar post.. ahahahaa.. bcos we went out together or something, so end up we describing the same thing.. but each of us has a different feeling to it.. so it's interesting to see wat my friends are thinking and feeling regarding to the same thing that we've gone through.. v(^.^)v

I need a new life... (9*.*)9 t(*.*t)

wrapping up my work..

let's talk abt something else.. i think my previous few posts made my blog shroud with a dark aura of solemnness.. er.. that sentence sound weird, but i think u get wat i mean..

yeah.. today went down to suntec for a demonstration.. not those riot demonstration, 'LIVE EARTH LIVE EARTH LIVE EARHT!', but my project demonstration.. early in the morning took 97 down.. i would always prefer to take a long journey bus to taking mrt.. bcos.. i dun like mrt? anyway.. the bus journey is ard 1hr + a little.. usually i'll juz KO in the bus... sleep until backside pain, then woke up.. woot~ cbd area.. OLs! conclusion: no matter how depress a man is, his eyes never rest...

i juz realised my taste of target (for my eyes) has changed.. now i'm kinda into OLs.. last time used to be those jc/poly/uni gals.. think it progresses with my age too.. along the journey, my eyes juz scan from left to right, right to left, repeat.. yeah.. that's my morning for today.. the stupid presentation onli lasted for 5min the most.. the rest of the time i was juz there listening to my boss talking abt politics with the IDA pple.. boss commented on my application GUI.. there's marquee title bar, a button with changing caption, self-made logo and stuff.. he said i gotta to be a genius and too much time le.. haha.. i dont care wat he says though.. bcos i really got too much time..

during lunch, i received a weird sms.. why i call that sms weird.. bcos the sms sender was named "Eileen".. i was thinking "err.. who?" then i remember oh, i've changed it.. u know.. i dun usually call her by her name.. so i'm juz not used to that name yet... had a little sms conversation with her over the lunch.. pretty nice.. but no.. i shant give myself high hope..

afternoon got kinda boring.. msn the whole afternoon.. then i decided to go for a walk.. on the excuse that i'm going to the nearby bookshop to photocopy a stack of documents (which i really need to do), i took a slow stroll.. feel like some ah pek enjoying a slow walk in the park.. and, there! that's my afternoon..

pretty boring ah? bo pian.. no special proj on hand.. bcos i onli need to wrap up whatever i was assigned in the first place... now my work is more or less done.. except 1 last event on monday.. that's why i'm still in the office, doing nothing.. yeap.. that's my day..

a friendly cab passenger...

something has been bothering for a veri long time.. do i look friendly? do i look approachable? somehow, everytime i take cab (and i take them veri often) alone hor, uncles they all often talk to me one.. some can talk abt politics, some can talk abt society issues, some can talk cock, some can tell mi abt their family background..

just today, was at a taxi stand behind 2 female youngsters. the cab came liao, then they like dunno want to board or not one. so i asked them, "sorry, are you taking it?" both ignored mi lidat can carry on with their discussion!! irritated, so i ignored them and took the cab lor.. then the uncle asked the girls ignored mi ah.. he went on talking abt how stuck up singaporean girls are. hahaha.. he said he divorced before.. bcos his wife stuck up.. then say he got remarried, and wife is actually his cousin. took veri good care of him. had daughter, 21 yrs old. young time veri naughty, now is actually taking further education on scholarships. he even showed mi the neoprints on the back of his phone, and the photos in his wallet.

1 thing that will make mi remember this uncle deep in my mind, he was talking to mi and looking thru the rear mirror making eye contact with mi. while he's talking abt his daughter, i can see his eyes were actually welled up with tears. those watery looking eyes. he does really love his daughter a lot... Awwwwwww.. but that's not the main point i'm trying to say in this post. LOOK! in juz a short 20-30min ride, i know his family backgrd liao!

was talking with jiehe in the morning, and somehow we talked abt should we reveal to our fren if we spot his/her other half in the street with another guy holding hands or stuff. to me, i would like to know of cos. but on the other hand, i dun wish to know.. bcos of my ego.. upon hearing the truth from the mouth of frens, it will be really damaging to ego.. and my ego for this is extremely huge... so friends! if one fine day such things happen to mi, pls dun tell me. give mi my ego. i'll find it out sooner or later. i should be smart enough to detect such stuff too, i guess...